Acknowledge thy self ( By extension, the power of thy voice)

Prozoe
Posted August 14, 2020 from South Africa

In my first year as a preschool teacher at a private Christian Preschool, I came across a 2 year old boy who would teach me my first eternal lesson as a preschool teacher. A lesson that I had not learnt in any of the other capacities of who I had been.  We always prayed together during the morning circle time, but this particular morning, he would ask me, in his rather silent voice, if he could pray. Somewhat sceptical, I nodded and gave him the go ahead.  “Dear Lord, thank You for friends, Thank You for teacher, thank You for mommy and daddy…” and just as I thought that he was about to finish up, he continued.  ”And thank You for Vhuhosi, Amen.”  Vhuhosi was his name, a busy body bright spark who never said much, but would continue to amaze me for the duration of time we would spend together. For the first time in my 20 something years of life, I had heard and experience someone acknowledging themselves and their existence out loud. I learnt that in as much as I pray and acknowledge grace, which I consider to be unmerited favour from our creator, I had never openly acknowledged myself and my existance that intensely. 

This prayer would set the tone for how I would carry myself through a lot of my experiences. I would not just acknowledge me, but also how privileged I had been in a given moment, to have been the one chosen to sit at the centre of that particular experience. I imagine that it could very well have been someone else, but it wasn’t, and this realisation overwhelms me with gratitude. Gratitude towards the once 2 year old boy I knew, and how he taught me the ultimate lesson of self-acknowledgement, a lesson I soon would realise is critical to grasp in this day and age, in a world where people would expect you to bend over backwards in order to for them to acknowledge you. This prayer would teach me that I don’t need to be acknowledged by others in order to feel like I matter. It taught me that I can teach and inspire others to acknowledge not just me, but themselves, just in how consciously I do it myself. It would teach me that I am the key to unlocking doors of Education, simply by counting myself on the list of those I thank, because they are responsible for helping me attain it. It would teach me that I hold a key to unlock doors to gender equality, by acknowledging myself, and as a result, carrying myself as an equal to my male counter parts. Showing them how to treat me, instead of simple expecting them to know better, besides, what certainty do I have that they had ever been exposed to a situation where they had been taught or experienced a woman as more than just the gender that she is. So I acknowledge myself so that they can see and learn how to. I would learn that I have a voice, rooted deep within me, that can speak for my heart, an inner 2 year old girl who trusts me to keep alive the brave she gave birth to many years ago, before I became a woman.

  Vhuhosi`s prayer challenged me, to challenge every girl I know/woman who finds it difficult to see themselves, to truly see themselves, to take another look in the mirror and SEE themselves. To realise that it’s okay to say “ thank goodness for me” despite the fact that I have no likes on social media, despite the fact that I am not doing well at this  education thing or wife thing, of job thing, or mom thing, or woman thing, thank goodness for me because I SEE ME. I see me show up, and I will continue to show up because this is my experience and I have been intended for this experience. It is not perfect but it is mine, it has been purposed for me, so I must have the tools and power to turn things around.  I can in no way, be purposed for something that I am not good at, something that is not intended to edify or to highlight the best of me. I could not have been purposed for him to beat me, for me to look like them, to marry at 15, to head a household, to not get educated or whatever else it is the struggle you facing. This prayer has challenged me to urge every single young woman, to arm and empower themselves with self-acknowledgement, to count your vote in your life and make yourself the keeper of your choices. Become the one who counts herself, and teach others how to count you, inspire them to count themselves, how to count themselves valuable. Raise your voice and say ‘ thank You Lord for ME, because  I know that I am purposed to move this world, just a little bit more into the right direction, or perhaps even, to move this world a whole lot, into its intended direction.     

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Isaura Diniz
Aug 14
Aug 14

Prozoe,
I am so glad I came across your post, this was such a heartwarming and inspirational story/lesson to read about.
Self discovery and self-acknowledgement are not easy, and we can learn on how to enjoy and make the ride easier through stories like yours.

Thanking you and sending my love,
Isaura

Prozoe
Aug 15
Aug 15

Beautiful Isaura,
Thank you so much for all the heart.
#BigLove

Nini Mappo
Aug 15
Aug 15

Hi Prozoe,
I am glad to read from you again. Thank you for this valuable lesson of gratitude for self as key to self acknowledgement, and a key to setting the tone of how we are to be treated.

I value the reminder that the other person may not 'see' us, and that we can own the responsibility of educating them to 'see us. '"Become the one who counts herself, and teach others how to count you, inspire them to count themselves, how to count themselves valuable". This is so very fresh a perspective about identity and our expectations of that to be recognised by others!

Thank you for sharing your life changing experience, I am richer for having read this!

Prozoe
Aug 15
Aug 15

hi Nini,
it is an absolute pleasure to be able to share. thank you for how warmly you receive.

#BigLove

Hello, Prozoe,

I love your openness in receiving life messages from your surroundings. It takes an introspective and humble woman to learn from a two-year-old.

This resonates with me, "I would learn that I have a voice, rooted deep within me, that can speak for my heart, an inner 2 year old girl who trusts me to keep alive the brave she gave birth to many years ago, before I became a woman."

Who silenced us? Thank you for writing this post about self-acknowledgement. Trult, we don't need outside validation when we learn to celebrate who we are.

I'm inspired and encouraged. Please keep writing!

Prozoe
Aug 18
Aug 18

Who silenced us? Everytime I watch my girls play or hear them speak I wonder just that.
Thank you Karen, I appreciate that you are of a world that validates irrespective of expectation. You are a true encourager indeed.
#BigLove.

Thelma obani 2020
Aug 27
Aug 27

Sooo inspiring and interesting to ponder on. You are loved always.
Thanks for sharing

Prozoe
Aug 28
Aug 28

Thank you for reading Thelma

Much Love.

Chi8629
Aug 28
Aug 28

Thank you for sharing.

Prozoe
Aug 28
Aug 28

Hi Chi
Thank you for reading.

Much love

Chi8629
Aug 28
Aug 28

You are welcome darling.