Let Me Live

Hi this is Raj (my own worldname ) . I am as normal person as you guys are just few things make me different from youthat are my Choice ,my behaviar. and I am telling you my story because I need to talk someone , this i cant share with my family or friend not because i don't trust them it is because i don't want to hurt them .

let me introduce myself , i m 25 year old guy having family and friends but all alone deep inside my heart .i will tell my story in multiple session and begin it from very starting when i was a small child.

I born in middle class family . I was second child and only son .I love to play with dolls not outdoor games cricket or other games which usually boys play.I love to spend time inside home with my sister or other girls . as i grown older i realize i like things which are girlish. i was more comfortable with girls then the guys.I like to play with girls , dressed up , talk , move like girls .and my family was just ignoring all this I thinking i am small child , will change after i grow old , but sadly they were wrong ....

This all begunwhen I was teen and I used to like used to like guys in my school wheres all my other friend was attracting towards girls ........

The Very First Touch of a Man

It was summer and I was around 5 - 6 years old child . a very innocent and cute child living my own life without any problem . one day was playing in garden alone as always. a man who was my neighbour came to me . he was handsome and i used to like him and enjoy his touch . he used to kiss my cheeks and hug me .he called to his house saying he knows a new game and wants to play with me so i went to his house with him .

he took a chocolate in his mouth and asked me to come closer i went to him then his made me sit on his lap and asked me to eat the chocolate. as I told I like him and this act was exciting and new so started eating from his mouth then suddenly he started touching my back near my hips and started kissing me i did not know what to do , how to react on that so simply siting and was looking at him .not remember all about that incident but all i remember after that ...I waslaying down on his bed beside him all nude he was nude too..playing with me kissing me honestly speaking I was enjoying all that without knowing whether that was right or wrong was just enjoying .than suddenly felt pain down in my ass. hegrabbed me from back i was crying and trying very hard to get free from him but he did not allow me to move even a inch .he put one of his hand on my mouth to keep it shut so i can not shout .i remember I was crying like hell and could not shout so started biting him but he dint stopped he was continuouslypushing from back until I felt something wet and warm in my ass .I thought pooed so i was embarrassed and scared then he told to me it is his love to me nothing to worry about and he told to me that this is very secret game i can not share it with anyone else Iwill die. Ialso liked it till some extent so did not say this to anyone but today .I was there at his home for some more time then came back to my house thinking I got a good friend but it was not like the same I was thinking !!!!

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