All in vain

Rakhshinda Shakir
Posted December 2, 2020

Today, I lost a friend to my resentment. This is an absolute clueless life, abhorrent, cruel, and totally merciless. Wait! Why am I talking so much about feelings? Do they matter? Are we free enough to genuinely feel or is it a luxury? I don't know, but I have lost a friend to my miseries and human limitation, after all, I am a human too.

 

But what is not to be a human, I must tell you today. To not be human is to blame, to not accept, to complain, and to self victimize. To not be a human means to not feel, but I am a human with limitations and I must feel. those limitations and feel with each molecule in your soul the loss and gain life sheds on to you.

But what is not to be a human, I must tell you today. To not be human is to blame, to not accept, to complain, and to self victimize. To not be a human means to not feel, but I am a human with limitations and I must feel. Here is the thing with being human and to feel; you are aware of life's tiniest happenings. You are conscious of the chills it gives you, but most importantly you are aware of your own limitations and surrender to them as if the only wise choice.

Today, I lost a friend that perhaps I shouldn't have, but there is no way I can tell him " how limited we are as human beings". Hence, the very least I could do is " fare him well " in a properly human way; that is to feel and feel deep, very deep to my bones of the untold and unheard shortcomings of my own limited existence that words can never explain.

 

But what is not to be a human, I must tell you today. To not be human is to blame, to not accept, to complain, and to self victimize. To not be a human means to not feel, but I am a human with limitations and I must feel. o those limitations and feel with each molecule in your soul the loss and gain life sheds on to you. I am a human too. an never explain.

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jomarieb.earth
Dec 03, 2020
Dec 03, 2020

Dear Rakhshinda,
Human feelings are vulnerable. And to allow yourself the luxury of vulnerability is a strength and a time of growth. You will look back one day, and have a completely different point of view. For now, like you said, let go with love. To blame, not accept, complain, self victimize is extremely human. Who and what else does that?
Be kind to yourself. This is growth. You will process it differently later.
Hugz...JoMarie

Beth Lacey
Dec 03, 2020
Dec 03, 2020

You have to be human and feel your humanity. It's what makes you beautiful.

Karin vonKrenner
Dec 04, 2020
Dec 04, 2020

Dearest Rakhshinda,
I hear your sorrow at the loss of a friend. We Are human. It is our greatest strength and weakness. I hope someday, your friend will return to you with both your scars healed.
Stay strong and be kind to yourself. We cannot control what others do and we are ourselves sometimes; leaves in the wind. Sending you love.
Karin

Busayo Obisakin
Dec 05, 2020
Dec 05, 2020

Dear Rashinda
So sorry for your loss Rashinda! Yes be human and allow your self to feel the grief and walk through it.
Sending HUGS and LOVE Sis
Busayo

Leonida Odongo
Dec 07, 2020
Dec 07, 2020

Dear Rakhshinda,

Sorry for the loss.May you find strength to overcome the pain and the loss.

Leonida

Nini Mappo
Dec 08, 2020
Dec 08, 2020

Hello Rakshinda,
How are you going since this post? Are you making peace with the loss and finding strength and creativity to ANEW yourself? (I remember that poem:-) )

Caroline Bokwe
Dec 09, 2020
Dec 09, 2020

Dear Rakhshinda,
So sorry for your loss.
The mistakes of our daily living and all those vulnerabilities are what makes us human.
Keep the faith sister.