Parents Brutal Violence against Me

I was 27 old, I loved and eloped with a man. I realized my mistake. But my mom gave a false complaint to Indian police that I stole all her gold jewelry and ran away. Indian Police caught and hurt me. I am from Tamilnadu. My mom took me to her house and her own sister bought two unknown men and started brutally torturing me. My mom was sitting on a chair watching me getting me tortured. They brutally beated me with a rod, tored my clothes, stamped me, made me to bleed on my nose and knees, my own grandma plucked my hair and threw away. Her sister was stamping my vagina saying that I am greedy on sex and I was wanting to lick the penis of the man with whom I ran away. My mom didn't stop anyone. They took my certificates, passport and my belongings and locked me in a dirty room for a year with no contact with anyone. I had no food for continuous three days. Everyday they used abusive words calling me a prostitute. I used to get food only once in a day for a whole year. Several days when I sit in the toilet I never use to get normal excretion. Only tiny droplets used to come. I cried a lot. I've never seen my Father from my birth. They treated me as a slave dog always abusing me with no humanity. Till the day before I got married I was tortured brutally by her sisters. I wanted to be loyal to my future husband. So I told the truth to him by phone call before marriage whatever happened to me and the reason behind it. My mother was listening to my phone talk and she told her sisters and they took a wooden bar and hit my head hard. Only till that I can remember. Later I totally became mad and mentally unfit. He got shocked the day before marriage that I became mental. But still he never gave up and married me. He got angry and planned to sue everybody. But they apologized and gave back my belongings to him. Right away he took me to abroad and got settled. He admitted me in a psychiatric clinic and diagnosed with PTSD, I was in sedation. Later I was shifted to Mental wellness center. I got treated well and came out of mental illness after a year. It's been 4 years since this happened and I'm unable to forget. I hate my mother and her family to the core. I blocked everybody's contacts and decided to not look at them anymore in my life even if they die. I hate going back to India. Even today I can't remember what happened during and after my marriage and how I came abroad. He showed the photos of our marriage and then only I realized I got married. Whenever I see those photos I used to feel very sad that I was mental. Many times I use to think what made my Husband to love me this much even though I made a mistake in my past and I revealed to him. My Husband is my only strength and my backbone. But still I'm getting those bitter thoughts and ruining my routine life. Currently I'm pregnant. I'm unable to be happy in my pregnancy. Those past experience come even in my dream when I sleep. Please someone one advice me to get rid of my past bad experiences. I want to lead a happy life with my Husband and my future Child.