How Did I Get Here?
My success is not determined by anyone’s success or failure at what I am about to attempt but by my unparalleled determination and commitment to succeed.
Today I formally introduce myself to you.
One beautiful July summer’s day, back in the nineteen seventies this lioness was born. Mum first learned of my coming when she visited the doctor with a self diagnosed case of the flu. I was born Karen Adora Wilson. I am a mother; my daughter wants to be like me when she grows up. I am the sister who always has the right answers. I am a daughter; mummy always wants to be in my corner. I am a loyal and committed employee. I am a balanced and professional employer. I am a friend; to few, but I offer meaningful and rewarding friendships. I am an ex-wife. I am my own individual. I have a voice. I have great strength. I have a style. I have a dream. I have a purpose and I have a plan.
But… how did I get here?
As a child, I had nothing going for me. I was poor! I was fatherless! I was illiterate! I knew no one of consequence and no one of consequence knew me. I befriended loneliness and depression often visited me. Funs days were pitching marbles with my brothers and friends, playing “baby house” under our breadfruit tree or cooking at the riverbank below my grandfather’s place whilst filling my stomach with mangoes, bananas and plum-roses.
On rainy days I played with dolls made of sponge I secretly cut from the single bed in our room and snacked on flour mixed with cooking oil or dried coconut. At nights I entertained my younger sisters by reading them folktales and bedtime stories. Despite by semi illiteracy and lisp I always managed to bring to live stories like “One Eye, Two Eye and Three Eye”, “The Billy Goat Groff“ and “Jack and the Beanstalk“.
I got through primary and midway through secondary school as an average performer. Plagued by insecurity and low self esteem. Taunted and bullied. Names such as “Old Mole”, “Big Eyes”, “Coarse Voice” “Hungry Belly” and “Pisser Bed” were often hauled at me at the playground or in the corridors. At third form, I failed to make the grade for promotion and had to repeat. Mummy was furious! Mummy was frustrated! She quarreled! She said she was wasting her time. Consequently, I reached out to an older sister in Trinidad for assistance with my schooling going forward.
That was a pivotal time in my life. It was there I decided that limitations and mediocrity will not define my future. After secondary school, I attended the St. Vincent & the Grenadines Community College, Technical Vocation Division and pursued a two year Secretarial program. Ironically, I never wanted to be a secretary. In college I developed the motto “failure is not an option for me”. I had one chance to alter my life; to change my destiny; to defy the odds; and to make it impossible to walk that poverty, solitary path my parents and grandparents had trod.
I tried the public sector. I was a Stenographer at the House of Assembly, Secretary to the Minister of Agriculture and Labour and Office Administrator at the Forestry Division. Then.. I tried the private sector. Five years into my working career, I started at the Mustique Company limited, naïve but with the following purposes:
- To build a beautiful home
- To further my studies
- To increase my professional experiences
- To create my own legacy
My plan was to alter my life by altering the attitude of my mind.
My journey has been long, trying and tiring. I’ve cried many tears and laughed just a little. I have felt invisible, battered and bruised. I have gained poise, confidence, grace, wisdom and great strength.
Fourteen years later, I stand before you accomplished. I have created my own legacy. I have started many firsts. I have built my home. I have a BA in Business Management, a MBA with specialization in Human Resource Management and a DBA in Leadership and Executive Management. I am a Senior Manager at the Mustique Company Limited with responsibilities for Human Resources, Telecommunication Administration, Internal Properties and Utilities Billings. I am the first native Vincentian to have started in this prestigious Company at a very junior position of Administrative Assistant and now commands Senior Management status.
I consider my mission to make a difference, to strengthen, to motivate and to inspire. My favorite quote is by Marianne Williamson” Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frighten us. We ask ourselves. Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Despite my many obstacles, there exists within me unquenchable thirsts to become all I know I can. Though so many dreams have come true. I am still dreaming … I have a dream… that one day, I will be an Author, renowned Consultant and Motivational Speaker.
As I look back on my journey thus far, two questions echo in my mind; where am I going? Who will I inspire next?
To Motivate People to Effect Positive Change Getting people not to feel embarrassed about their past but instead to use it as a vehicle to impress change in others lives Human Resource Management. Motivational Speaking / Writing
The world will become a better place. More women will be empowered. One day many rough patches will be smoothened and mediocrity, limitations and sufferings amongst women will be lessened