Struggles but celebration

Hi, 

I have shared apart of my story already... and at the age of 29 I still have a lot to be thrown at me I am sure but life has certainly got better in fact very positive and I am not sure how to tell you how! Being a mum is the best feeling in the world and they isn1t anything I wouldn`t do for my 3 children, I give them so much and teach them what they need.

I have a 9 year old daughter... she has has a few upsetting moments in her life I sit here everyday showing her no matter what comes your way you can always fight it. Sitting here now as I have been told I am an inspiration to many with out even realising it and my daughter looks up to me.

I always tell her to be her self, don`t be like everyone else life is not a competition and you have to be your own person, I have certainly stuck to that all of my life and from a very young age. I was always that weird kid, that I never fitted in because I was different even through school teachers did not like my creativity. I was always put down for that I always got it wrong.. thats not what we asked for you have to change it! But I always kept to what I believed in and still now I am the same.

I have certainly experienced a lot, but I am here fighting and standing tall because I kept my belief's knowing one day i would be who I want to be without any judgement from anyone around me. the short version of my story is, I have been through mental, physical, and sexual abuse from the age of 9 up to the age, abandonment from my parents.. being in the care system feeling no one wants you.  

I self harmed, had eating disorders.. and therapy and counselling most of my teenage life... I have battled al through this and deaths of my grandmother which was so tough, that was when I was 19 and i was pregnant at that time with my daughter. No one hardly believed in me apart from her, she always believed I was here for something that I was special and that I would do great things with my life. She had the faith in me.. and now only in the last 18 months I have been able to achieve more than a person could imagine in a life time, because I am a fighter and to show others what you can do!

This last 19 months almost have been just incredible, I have achieved well beyond what I wanted to do and wanted to be I am a mum, an woman and finally hit my professional career before I hit 30! When others around you doubt you, tell you, you will never achieve anything in life, you are not worth it... You will be nothing! Well I think different And having art as my escape has certainly helped and I will become that art therapist one day .. I will not give up on what I believe in I have to be that role model for my children especially my daughter.. showing her my strength is rewarding enough don`t you think?