single independent mother strives to succeed during covid-19

So, upon being a single mother of several years now to my loving smart daughter. I've sought to being a strong independent individual and at the same time expressing to my child that, at the same time it is okay ...not to be okay! We have been through so much together. And I myself before even having a child endeared so so much as a child to. No parents around.  Grandparents setting me on right and wrong. Raising 4 grandkids.  They are my true heroes ❤ ♥ . It is very hard though, when you are so behind on things, rent, utilities, other.  To not lose yourself during these hard times. Fear not! God is here. He has always been here. He will never stray afar. We pray nightly , try to at least .when unemployment doesn't pay you even half of what you made working, your behind in rent/mortgages, need food. Worried about utilities behind. Your child needs internet for school now days. Your rushing every day trying to make things perfect for them so their comfortable during this precedent time. Spending hours researching at home jobs, online jobs from home...contemplating even going back to your previous job, even though you were their for years ! Covid 19 has slightly ruined me. Or so, I thought.  No vehicle for years now , Spending 9 hours night in and night out , because you have to catch the local transit on time, and because of this you have to leave Earlier, it takes way longer. Making you gone 9 hours  V.S 6 and a half on a 6 hour shift if you had a car....Working nights   because thats the only shift available any where so you can get your child on and off the bus. And now , being use to nights for years ....and your kid now is home all day .  And in school again now. Shuffling to try and get use to sleeping at night again! Transitions from night shift to normal day....not easily manageable. Than, their is my mom...she did not raise me but I've tried being their for her over the years.  Having false hope like I'm still 5 and think mom is Coming back when she says she is. ! She never does. Things haven't changed. Its like I have another child. You only get one mom I know, but to me. My grandparents were my mom and dad. And..she keeps screwing me over. Taking my things..leaving every hour of the day..in and out , in and out..up and down the stairs... Repeat..it just doesnt work. I repeat.. DOESN'T WORK! SHE HAS NOT HAD A JOB IN OVER 10+YEARS! . I've tried reconciliation with her. Nada...she will never change. Never ! She doesn't help with food.  Or bills. Or rent. In 3 going on 4 years.  She has helped me pay 2 utilities.  That is it. Their is so much more I could fill you all in on. But I'm going to keep the rest of the juicy things for another time. Yeah? Okay...upon finishing this up..ive expressed this to you all to bring something to light..w8th all this dealing with in life. I still have faith. I have not left my God. I know he is their. I am staying strong . And guiding my child to do the same. Never give up hope .  We are here. We are together. Everyone has their problems..family members who are the problem. Financial stability issues as a single parent or couple, grieving a loss , relationship troubles. Whatever it may be , we are here ! I am still here. Keeping it going. Stay informed .Stay motivated. Stay smiling. Through thick and thin. Your strength lies within-- Samantha ❣