Don't Give Up.

People have been asking themselves about this topic almost everyday. What do we do for our future? Most of the people I know wants to have a peaceful life, a good job,get marriedand have children, yada yada yada.

But for me...I have been asking this question to myselfever since I started my first job in a café shop. When I was young, I thought I've found my dream, and that is becoming a patisserie chef.I thought that working in the café shop will become my first step of achieving my dream.

And now I'm not so sure anymore.

You see, I've found my passion of writing fan fictions stories a few years ago, most of them relating to anime. And ever since then, I start having second thoughts about becoming a chef.

It was confusing. I was so sure that I thought becoming a patisserie chef is my dream, but becoming a writer wasn't so bad either. But I just don't know what to choose. Torn between these two career, I was so stressed out that I become depressed, unsure of my future anymore.

Last night, I talked to my mother about this and she told me: "My child, you are still young, you have many choices for your future. Just take it easy, and do your best for the first job first. Pray to god if you are unsure, and he will help you find the answer you're looking for. Just work for a year and see if you like it, if you don't like it, find another job while you're working, and quit the job if you've found another job for yourself."

And I did, I work as hard as I can for my first job. But nowadays, I am still not sure for my future. Becoming a chef or becoming a creative writer?

That's when I lose all my hope for my future. I don't know what to do anymore, I start thinking negative thoughts, stressed, anddepressed. I even tried to commit suicide because of this stress.

But Ialways replayed my mother's words in my mind over and over again, and I know I can't give up now. I can't just run awayjust because it's difficult, that just means you're giving up on life.

Everybody always says that living is difficult, working for money to support yourself and your family, working for your future so your children and grandchildren can live peacefully even if it meansyou have to sacrifice a lot of things for the future you wanted.

So...For those who have the same problem as I am, or for those who still don't know what to do for your future.I don't know if this advice helps you but I'mjust wanted to say it because I knowthat women and men out there are having difficulties with their life and for their future.

Don't give up. You can't give up right now. If you give up, you're just running away from your problem. Even if you don't know what to do for your future, you just have to search for it. Keep searching for it until you've found the path that you want to walk, the path to your great future.