Shannon Lockhart-Roberts
Posted August 15, 2020 from United States

I’m afraid to step out but I’m more afraid to stay the same. I have to keep going because I hear my Father calling my name He’s calling me higher and closer to him. So its a must I go and step out on a limb. Weary and afraid I’ll hesitantly follow you, after all I really don’t have a choice that’s all I know how to do. You’ve been faithful and have kept me in your safety net but why do I always seem to worry and fret?  I’m worried about what others may think I’m afraid that if I completely go for it, I’ll sink. I’ll sink in failure surrounded by doubt and my insecurities oh lord why did you have to choose me?  I’ll walk away and just hang my purpose on the shelf, I often question “why couldn’t you have chosen someone else?”. you subtlety draw me back with your unconditional love. It is your love and grace that makes me refrain from pulling the plug. Pulling the plug on reaching my God given destiny, occasionally it just seems so heavy. Ok I hear you I really do This time I’m not going to doubt but choose to trust you. I’m going to allow you to fully take control and  then I’ll watch the new me begin to unfold. Wow, I see the progression Im grateful for every trial and lesson. Im unstoppable since now I believe with God, I can do the impossible. Its amazing I feel so relieved, I feel like there is no longer a struggle for me to breathe. You removed every hurdle that was in my way now in your will i gotta stay. I have to see this thing through every promise you have spoken i know it will come to... it will surely come to past and all I’ll be able to do is give you glory and bask....Bask and delight in what you have done for me even when I didn’t want it you said this is who you are destined to be. You are called and chosen for such a time as this God already knows our future but it is us who don’t want to miss it! Blessings and love ❤️

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Nini Mappo
Aug 15
Aug 15

Wow Shannon,
Such a beautiful description of 'growing pains' in faith. It reminds me of what Peter said to the Lord "Where else have we to go, you alone have the words of eternal life" And your poem/self talk reflects that inner struggle leading to the same conclusion.

Good on you for holding on to faith, and encouraging us to do the same. May God honour you for that.

Thank you for sharing your journey and blessings to you too:)

Absolutely- Peter was on to something lol I didn’t get it until I went through it myself. Thanks Nini for your kind words and for taking the time to read :)

Hello, Shannon,

Your post reminds me of the disciples riding a boat in the midst of the storm. They saw a "Ghost", and Peter said, " Lord, if it's you, tell me to come".

Jesus replied, "Come." Peter stepped out of the boat and walked on water. His eyes focused on his Master made him do the impossible.

Every time I'm in a struggle of faith and trust, I go back to this incident: how we are assured that God is ahead of us, and all we need is to step out of the boat.

If the rest of the disciples joined Peter, then we would read a different story in the Bible.

Thank you for sharing, sis Shannon. Here's a verse that I love, "I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go." (John 21:18)

So true! Many people talk about how Peter began to sink but few talk about the fact he had the courage to take a step. Such an awesome comparison! Stepping out of the boat is scary but so rewarding! Thank you for taking the time to read❤️

Yes, but all people do is criticize his failure, they will never experience walking on water.

The critics don't count, dear. You're welcome!

Beth Lacey
Aug 18
Aug 18


Thank you so much ❤️

Thelma obani 2020
Aug 27
Aug 27

We are assured that he is ahead of us like others have said

Absolutely! ❤️ So grateful for that!

Aug 28
Aug 28

Hello Beautiful Sister,
How are you doing?
Hope you are doing well?
Thank you for sharing.
Happy weekend .
Much love to you.

Hello !!! I am great how are you?
Thanks for taking the time to read! Enjoy your weekend as well ❤️

Aug 28
Aug 28

Iam good too . Thank you . Blessings to you.

Sep 03
Sep 03

Dear Shannon,

Thank you for sharing. I enjoyed reading it.


Thank for taking the time to read Adanna! Blessings and love to you!