My Fighting Chance

sherifa
Posted January 25, 2018 from Kenya

It is not easy to fight, but it's even harder to fight alone. When I was six years, I was abused more than once. I was used by an older woman as an object of pleasure. I didn't know it was wrong. I didn't even know what was happening.

One year later, we moved out to live in Nairobi, and I forgot everything. As I grew up, i enjoyed learning sexual reproductive health and rights. That’s when I remembered that was once a victim of sexual abuse. No one in my family knew what happened and I was you scared to tell.

I would cry alone and ask why. I blamed myself because deep down I knew it happened because I let it happen, it was all my fault. I didn’t know how to erase it from my head, so I started doing drugs. I became an addict and a slave to drugs. I had no one to run to, not even my shadow. My only comfort was drugs and a reckless life at the age of sixteen. By the time I was about to finish high school, I got pregnant. I didn’t know that my baby would be my escape and salvation.

I had no time to cry or wonder. All I would do is look after her and work hard for her. After giving birth I was determined to go back to school. I did so and got a job. I am able to support myself and I now know that I am not to blame for whatever happened to me. I’m a warrior fighting for myself and other young ladies that would have been in my position, or have been through the same. I now can now fight my past using my present. I have a fighting chance and I will be strong.

This story was submitted in response to Bringing Up Boys .

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Jill Langhus
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018

Hi Sherifa. Thanks for sharing your incredible story of tenacity and overcoming obstacles. I was so happy to read that you were able to turn your life around, not only for yourself, but your daughter. I'm also glad to hear that you no longer blame yourself, too. Do you have a mission or vision to help other girls or women with similar challenges to overcome? I would love to hear about it, if you do:-)

sherifa
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018

Hi Jlanghus.

Thank you for reading and appreciating my story.Yes I have a mission and vision that keep me going.I always remind myself that I will only lose if I quit trying and that I should never give up.Whenever it gets hard I look at the future and how I want my child to know.I want her to respect me for being strong and compassionate.I can the tell other ladies that no matter what you go through,God only gives you challenges you can handle.

Kind regards.

Olutosin
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018

You are so strong. We are stronger together. That is why its hard to fight alone. I am happy that you survived and that you are a warrior.

Keep on achieving.

sherifa
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018

Hi Olutosin.

Thank you for reading my story and for the complement.Yes we are stronger together.

Kind regards.