PRETEND

Do you Pretend to be someone...? I do, a lot. At home I pretend not to be existed when they need to help in their works, and to scold me, and tell me to study. At college also I pretend not to be existed even though I want everyone know that I too am here, and want to be friends with everyone. But no, I don't want anyone to spot me. I am afraid of being teased. It's because of my physical experience. If my friend is 40 kg I will be like 90 kg. You will be thinking ' What's with that?' well, it is all. I am fat. I pretend to accompany with my Friends and Teachers when they make fun of me. But inside, I want to blurt out how I feel, how I want to run away from this world, how I want to die at that moment. Actually I am fed up of all this pretending to be 'just friend' to the person I love. I hate my friends who pretend to be my best friend and tell my secrets to everyone in my absence. I hate my first love who pretended to be the one I need the most and left me taking all my happiness. I hate this pretended world who only loves to hear what is favored to them. I hate everything. I hate me.