Do not Look for Me in the Crowds of Those Celebrating

Sinyuy Geraldine
Posted March 8, 2019 from Cameroon

 Do not Look for Me in the Crowds of Those Celebrating

Today is the 8th of March 2019. I ask you not to look for me in the crowds gathering and celebrating in the streets of “Free Cities”. For I am locked up in some dark corner of the earth, forced to be a hermit by the crisis rocking the foundation of my city! I am here, alone, my only companion children who know nothing about Women’s Day!  How do I manifest my capacity as a World Pulse Ambassador? Yes, do not look for me in the conference rooms, the roundtable talks and all the places in the entire Universe where women have gathered. I weep the lost merriness and I weep for the women down shivering in the bushes under palm trees, shrubs, and shifty rickety huts for homes and in search of safety from the raging war. Now the rain comes thundering down like an earth quake with hail stones and heavy storms. I wonder if the palm tree under which the wandering homeless women and children will fall on them.

 I weep for the innocent babies tugged under shriveled breasts of starveling mothers. The lips jarred, the eyes sunken, the gape to the sky is useless for no help comes from the Lord who made heaven and earth at this moment of agony.  Do not look for me in the streets of those celebrating Women’s Day and raising their voices to the world, for my voice is chocked in the trauma that enshrines my village, medication can’t reach my sick mum who should have received her parcel of medicines as a gift on Women’s Day from a daughter who cares so much for her well-being, but no, the messenger returned for the gun shots were too deadly. Mama waits, mama looks to the road, “when will a message come from the city? Will there be any visitor to bring some good news?”

I weep for the women who are stuck like myself. As I mourn the calamities that have befallen my people, a call comes from my aunt who has braved a hill so to get network. She urges me to send medications to mama, we both forget to wish each other the usual “Happy Women’s Day”, but is this really happy? This is an usual occasion! We hurry over the telephone conversation, conclusions are drawn, my aunt switches off her phone on the other end without bidding me goodbye.  She has to hurry back down from the hill where she has climbed to look for network. I understand. I look at the parcel containing the medications lying at my desk. I pray some brave eagle will come take this to my mother.

The day is almost gone. It is 2:23PM. I listen for any noise of celebration and the only sound I hear is a gunshot. Then the silence returns. I think of the Champagne that should be flowing in the party halls now where women have no cares, for their voices are being heard. Then, I notice that the tears streaming down from my eyes and flooding my cheeks are like bitter Champagne! The rain cries with me, I hear it drizzling and the ‘tip tap, tap, top’ on the roof top from the branches of trees overhanging over my roof.  I pray the rain washes every pain away. It appears the rain hears my thoughts, it is now raining heavily, it takes away the silence. I am still sitting in my dark corner, and I ask you not to look for me in the crowds of those celebrating this day!

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jlanghus
Mar 08
Mar 08

Hi Geraldine,

I'm so sorry to hear about your poor mom, aunt and the state of your country-:( I do hope better days are to come, and very soon!

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear sister Marie, it such a pathetic situation. We pray for better days to come.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear Sis Jlanghus, thanks so much for sharing love by reading my story and commenting. Yes, i pray i get the medications to my mum. Thanks for wishing me well.

jlanghus
Mar 09
Mar 09

You're welcome! How is your mom doing, dear?

Hope you have a good, and safe weekend...

Marie Abanga
Mar 08
Mar 08

Our country, once a land of milk and harmony is now a ghost of all that. So so so sad what greed and ego can do to destroy a people.
I hope you get a way to send the medication to mama

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Sister Maya, your name reminds of Maya Angelo. Thank you so much for reading my story. You have all shown my love and thank you all. Thanks for wishing me well.

Maya Iwata
Mar 08
Mar 08

Geraldine,
I'm so sorry to hear about the state of conflict where you live and appreciate you sharing your story as there are other women around the world who relate to what you are saying. Glad to hear that you were able to connect with an Aunt and hope that better days are to come. I hope your mother gets her medication and that it will be safe for you to deliver it to her soon. Thinking of you.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Thanks so much sis Leina, for your encouragement.

Leina
Mar 08
Mar 08

Thanks for sharing sis Geraldine.I weep for our beloved nation.You are the hope for many.Keep the courage sis

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Thanks alot sis Ijioma

IjeomaSO
Mar 08
Mar 08

Oh, this sure leaves me thoughtful. Just be strong and hang on, never you loose hope. Better days are ahead dear.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Thanks for your encouragement Mauri. Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

Mauri Favaron
Mar 08
Mar 08

Our hearts are with you!

I'll not look for you in the crowd, yet I know firmly you are there. Doing. Praying.

My wishes, to your mom and aunt, and your country.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear sister Christinegliles, your comments made me to weep the more, not because they made me sad, but because i am heard, because i belong, because i am heard. Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

christinegiles
Mar 08
Mar 08

Your words bring a flow of tears . . . I am so very sorry for the world we live in and the pain and fear it causes for so many people. May hope and opportunity soon find you, sweet sister.
Christine

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Daer Sis Bea, youre such a lovely sister! Thanks for praying for me and my family and country. Im happy you read my story. lots of love

Bea Evans
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear Geraldine,
You are not alone as you sit in that dark corner. The words you share are heard by your sisters! International Women's Day and your story reminds us of the struggles many women around the world continue to face. It is a day to of re-commitment to empower each of our sisters so they can live a life to their fullest potential. You, your mom, your country are in my thoughts.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear sister Jacqueline. Its so heart touching to know that you read my story. Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

Jacqueline Namutaawe

Hi Geraldine this iis the harsh reality about we Women and the hurdles nevertheless we are still standing. We pray that the situation gets better and normal.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Hi Moi,Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

moi
Mar 08
Mar 08

Powerful imagery. Your voice no matter what can never be silenced

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Hi sister Musumba. Your name is so rhythmic and sounds so musical. I feel like dancing when i write it out. Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

Phionah Musumba
Mar 08
Mar 08

You got something powerful; your pen! The strength of your voice, amidst the oppression shines through. Mama will be fine as I believe you will find a way to get the medicine to her. Praying for her quick recovery. As for your motherland, keep raising your voice; we will amplify it and in as much as it might tarry, one day it shall be well. It is always darkest just before dawn.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

His sister Arrey. You know it all. Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

ARREY - ECHI
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear Geraldine,
It is so painful to read your story because it pains the stark realities of the people in the other side and the hypocrisy of the other side carrying on as if all is well with the world.

Courage to you sis. I pray the meds do reach your mum somehow. It is really tough
Hugs to you.

Obisakin Busayo
Mar 08
Mar 08

So sorry my for hearing your sad story! Sending you Prayers, Love and Hugs in this trying time. Keep the courage my Sister, Remain Strong in your spirit. It is well with you and others in that place
Warmest Love
Busayo

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Hello sis Salifu, thank you for reading my story.Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

Sis. Salifu
Mar 08
Mar 08

Oh dear,
So sorry to hear this your story. What is happening? Please are you under serious threat? Please let us know.

Also see if you can find sister in same country with you and confined in them. Our prayers are with you. And remember there is always light at the end of the tunnel.

Sure better days will find you.
Take care of yourself in the lock place until help comes.
Warm regards

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear sister Kaity, thank you so much for showing me love by reading my story.Thanks for praying for me and my family and country. Lots of love.

Kaity Van Riper
Mar 08
Mar 08

You are heard. Your cries are not alone. I weep in solidarity with you. I cling to hope that God will change this. That one day you will be free to dance and celebrate.
Until then, know that you are surrounded by your sisters. We hear you. We weep for you. We pray for you. Stay strong and thank you for your bravery.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dearest sis Shebra. Yes, i feel the hugs and the love even though we are far apart. Thank you so much for reading my story and sharing my pain. Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

Shebra
Mar 08
Mar 08

Your writing has touched me deeply...I am grateful you took time to write of your
sorrow and I wish I could be there beside you to hug you and give you hope.
I am thinking of you, your family and your community. I too will not be
celebrating with any champagne. But I am grateful to be in a wonderful country.
One day, we will all be equal humans. Your story helps motivate others. I send you a hug, and I am grateful for your words and story. Thank you, Sinyuy

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear sister Olutosin, Thanks for praying for me and my family and country.

Olutosin
Mar 08
Mar 08

Ashia my sister. Hard to celebrate in sorrow. Ashia my sweet sister.

Sinyuy Geraldine
Mar 08
Mar 08

Dear sister Anne, thanks so much for reading my story and sharing in my pain. I am so moved to know that many of you reacted to my story from my dark corner. It is so touching. Thanks for praying for me and my family and country. Tomorrow i will try to send a driver who plies my village road again to see if he can get there to send the medications to my mother.

Anne Dupont
Mar 08
Mar 08

My sister, Geraldine,

I feel your pain, solitude and tears over what this conflict has done to your country and to practical every day relationships and tasks. Please know that we love you and that although you may be alone physically, we are with you spiritually. I hope you can feel the love and prayers coming your way.

Thank you for sharing this moving story; may you find a window of opportunity to get your mama the medicine she needs. We hope with you. . .

Warmly,

Anne

Corine Milano
Mar 08
Mar 08

Thank you for sharing this story and for letting us know more of what it is like in your homeland today. It is heartbreaking to know this is your experience and that there are so many who share it in Cameroon and other countries in conflict. We hear you and we are praying for you and your mother and your aunt and all the women and children and men who are impacted by this violence. Please keep sending dispatches and letting us know what is happening. We are here for you and all the World Pulse sisters in Cameroon. I pray that next March, you will be standing in the streets drinking champagne and celebrating a peaceful and beautiful day - with no threat of violence.

Hello, Sister Geraldine,
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I weep with you. You have a gift of writing. Use that as a tool to change the narrative of your story, and by God's mercy, also your country.

Praying for healing --- for your mom and for your nation.Hugs