Trying to rewrite my destiny

Soorya Gayathri
Posted June 9, 2021 from India

Dreams and Uncertainties (poem)

I have a pocket full of dreams and uncertainties.

Waking up to these uncertainties certainly scares me. 

But I've learned that it never gets easier.

Where is it gonna lead is it something that remains to be seen?

-Soorya Writes.

 

Trying to rewrite my destiny (Storytime)

Now that India is in lockdown. Online classes came into my life.

 ( I'm a law student and currently in the last year of college and I'm not fond of my college or my college life :-|)

At first, I was a mess. I completely lost track of my studies and it did affect two semesters.

(I still have to get results of one semester but I know how badly it went so currently waiting for that failure)

Anyways, but then I kinda got used to being at home all the time. I slowly started to enjoy being at home and spending time with my mom. Now I started working on myself and my studies. I also have to study for the earlier semesters that I messed up. But now I realised the importance of studying and I also regret not figuring out everything earlier. I don't know what my future holds for me but I know that now I am giving my 100%. But it doesn't compensate for the mistakes that I did ( not working hard ).

All my life through schooling and most of my teachers has only made me feel like I am not worthy enough. For the first time, I feel like I want to prove everyone wrong and also prove myself wrong by working hard. 

I'm trying my best and let's see where it goes...

I'm just here in my home doing nothing and lockdown is a blessing in disguise for me. I started studying a bit. I finished 3 subjects and there is one more to go right now

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rebecca.tang
Jun 09
Jun 09

Thank you for sharing. It's never too late. I am glad to hear that you are finished more subjects. Your study is always for yourself not others. You don't need to care what others say. But, you must be honest to yourself and make sure yourself has not regret in the future. The current lockdown gives you a good chance to pick up your study and spend more time with your family.
Keep your hard work on! You can do it!
May Almighty God bless you!

Soorya Gayathri
Jun 15
Jun 15

Yes true... Carrying regrets would definitely not work for me:,-)
thank you so much. I will
(。♡‿♡。)

Tamarack Verrall
Jun 10
Jun 10

Dear Soul on Fire,
It is good to get news from you on how you have been doing. It is quite the journey you have been on, struggling with studies, with the extra work needed and stress related to covid. Congrats on pushing through. Prove those teachers wrong! Journey on right past them to what you want to do. Studying especially with covid can be tough. Congrats on getting back to it. You are on your way! You will never regret finishing. All the best with reaching your own goals!

Soorya Gayathri
Jun 15
Jun 15

Thank you so much. Working on proving those things wrong.
Yaas ;-)

Susu Mohamed
Jun 11
Jun 11

Dear SOUL,
continue learning and do more struggle you will success.
Regards,
suu

Soorya Gayathri
Jun 15
Jun 15

(◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

Beth Lacey
Jun 11
Jun 11

Don't have any regrets. None of us knew how to handle lockdown in the beginning. Now, unfortunately, we are experts. Never let anyone make you feel you are not enough. You are always enough.

Soorya Gayathri
Jun 15
Jun 15

Oh my god thank you •́ ‿ ,•̀ . Yes I am still learning that I am the one who will define my worth. ( ◜‿◝ )♡