Redundancy- the safety net

Vidya Rajagopalan
Posted March 14, 2020 from India

Hey guys,

So guess what I discovered- the safety of our routines.

Sounds crazy, right? Well, that's truth. I've tried and escape this loop by learning something new, I have slept for hours on end trying to think of nothing but nightmares, I've learnt something new everyday; but the danger of not having a backup terrifies me. I have had the epiphany that my routine college life is my escapism- from dealing with the monstrosity my mind conjures, I end up swirling myself in redundant activities.

Well, won't I end up yapping about it till my breath exhausts my voice? I do! However, that's way better than the silent roar on days I take a break trying to write, read or listen to something. Moreover, they're mere distractions from the inevitable.

I highly yearn for displacement- immersing myself in something that's valuable and worth my time. Then again, I realized no matter how much I crave and execute my talents (if you can call them) I never feel good enough of them. No matter how much I spill and create patterns of words, the dew in the window pane becomes the residue of my tears which reflects my self-degradation. 

Somehow, in the due course of time, it occurred in my head that I must be more compassionate and some setbacks are completely okay. I'm learning to discover my spark, attempting to entrance myself in my poems. In the end, we all express to be be heard and not impress and compare the loftiness of the subjectivity in each other. 

So for this week, displace not distract, that is, opt an activity that you really adore and entrance yourself into it, conform to the love that you possess and wield for that task and drown yourself away from the problems for a while before the storm that's awaiting you ends up spewing volcanic waves on you. Because these little things are the your iceberg to melt those waves and the tip of it will have been scraped by you once you are inspired to change.

Engage, engorge and encourage.

Toodles

V

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Kirthi Jayakumar
Mar 15
Mar 15

Dear Vidya,
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and for being so gentle and vulnerable through your post. It takes a lot of courage to articulate thoughts that sometimes feel heavy to bear in our minds.
Your lines: "Somehow, in the due course of time, it occurred in my head that I must be more compassionate and some setbacks are completely okay. I'm learning to discover my spark, attempting to entrance myself in my poems. In the end, we all express to be be heard and not impress and compare the loftiness of the subjectivity in each other. " really impacted me!
Thank you for your thoughts, Vidya!

Vidya Rajagopalan
Mar 15
Mar 15

Thanks you, really means a lot reading this comment

Sowmya Swaminathan
Mar 15
Mar 15

Thank you for writing this, Vidya! I can relate to everything you've said.
It is so easy to be kind to others, but I feel it has harder to be kinder to myself. Perfection and convention are so deep rooted in our society that I sometimes wonder how many years will we take to unlearn all of this, and cultivate compassion for ourselves! But reading your story gives me hope for the future! <3
Thank you for being so authentic while writing on a difficult subject! Much love and power to you!
Love,
Sowmya

Vidya Rajagopalan
Mar 15
Mar 15

Thanks for stading in solidarity with me! Means a lot❤

Anita Shrestha
Mar 15
Mar 15

Thank you for sharing

Chidimma
Mar 16
Mar 16

Thanks for sharing sister. It also reminds me of those when I sit at home, no job was thinking, distraction. Imagining so many things in my mind, some good, some bad, big dreams and without achieving any results. Thank God is over today. Thanks for sharing and I will go back reading it again. Much love.

Metiege Noel Eve
Mar 17
Mar 17

Thanks for sharing such an awesome story sis.

Vidya Rajagopalan
Mar 17
Mar 17

Anytime sis❤

Hello, V,

It is completely ok to be YOU, including the setbacks and the search to find your place in this world. Comparison kills our creativity. We are all unique as we are. Our individual wins and breakthroughs come in different timelines; thus, you are not early, not late, you are exactly where you needed to be. Blossom into a unique flower that you are, and bloom where you are planted!

Thank you for your bravery to speak up! Keep it going!

Vidya Rajagopalan
Mar 17
Mar 17

Thank you sister ❤

You're welcome!

JULITON
Apr 11
Apr 11

Thanks a lot, for your sound, very educative,

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