My survival: Hope

Suh Diviner
Posted April 13, 2018 from Cameroon

My survival: Delay is no guarantee to silence and failureEducation and studying new stuffs in life can be considered as my hobbies. At my cool  and quiet moments, I always read books and some novels. Back in those days in my secondary  school, my performance wasn’t that outstanding even though I was above average. Doing the  sciences was a dream which I succeeded in doing and later, out of good performance, I was  appointed senior prefect girl of that institution. It was a glorious moment for me to lead students,  attend seminars with the school administration. It equally gave me a sense of responsibility and  leadership which I groomed till date. I lived happily with those in my school, my ideas were  considered, my conversations and points were not overridden and this made me know that I was  going somewhere. Wow! After successfully going through secondary school happily (those who offered the  sciences should understand what I mean. Our dreams as big as they were kept the candle  burning), I immediately enrolled into a renowned school of Agricultural science in one of the  best universities in my country. Dear all, it was a beginning of another life and a transformation  period for me because I had to study in another language other than English language. It was hell  for me and that was my doom studying in French language. My best at school wasn’t good  enough to place me at an average above 12 despite all efforts. My complaints to the school  authorities to translate courses to English for the sake of English speaking students all fell on  deaf ears and that was it for the first few years (2012-2015). Gradually over the years (the third year), I fought against mockery and insults from my  counterparts, depression and inferiority complex. Thoughts like “you’re not going to make it, the  francophones are stronger than you so give it up” kept ringing on my mind but I told myself that  the end matters and not the beginning. In order to complete my last two years of professional studies (2016-2017), I was obliged to carry out a professional internship of not less than 6months  in preparation for defense and subsequently to obtain of a professional masters degree. Believe  you me my school gave me 4 months for this internship, to submit a thesis and to prepare for  defense. This was a challenging moment for me because as a crop production student, we are  obliged to carry out a field experiment from which we are to collect data and to write a thesis. It  wasn’t easy to carry out a field experiment because the crop I chose was tomato whose life cycle  is about 120 days.  When I started, I had several obstacles which hindered the progress of my write up and  unfortunately, I didn’t defend in the stipulated time. This was because of the limited time the  school gave me. Many friends and course mates went ahead and defended even with incomplete  field data and they were awarded their diploma. Candidly speaking, I was tempted to falsify my  data and submit my thesis in order to be counted as one of those who had completed their work  on time. I didn’t want to be mocked at anymore. I wanted my friends to also see me as one of the  tough students. But where will all these lead me to? Where is my dignity and pride? What can I boast of if not of a task well done? These questions kept ringing in my mind and so I decided tohold still and be patient. I hung in there and I am still waiting for that fortunate day that my  school will call me up for defense. Today, I am joyful because I can successfully and easily carryout field experiments without  major setbacks and obstacles. This distinguishes me from those students who rushed over their  thesis in order not to wait for one year still.  I will like to encourage young girls not to give up the zeal for what they love so much. And that  patience is a virtue because its fruits are enormous and that in any delay, there is a change and  transformation that that delay leaves in you. Try to see it and brave it lest you fall. I know what I will gain in this delay and the only thing I console myself is that one day I am gonna defend and  get that diploma in order to use it in search for a job. This is my survival: Hope!

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Olutosin
Apr 13, 2018
Apr 13, 2018

Thanks so much for your integrity. I am always happy when in the end we keep our stand. To me, my integrity is key. I always tell myself that even if the whole of Nigeria decide to be corrupt, I will remain honest to the point of death. God always tests his children and he will always make a way when we passed.
God will open great doors if opportunities for you and you will lead your generation and nation. Amen. I love your stand.
Thanks for not disappointing yourself and God.

Suh Diviner
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018

Amen dear Olutosin
Thank you for the words of encouragement. Indeed God still sits on the throne.

Jill Langhus
Apr 14, 2018
Apr 14, 2018

Hi Suh. Welcome to World Pulse:-) Thanks for sharing your inspiring story of honesty and tenacity. I agree with you, too, it's better to be honest and have integrity, than to take short cuts for short term success/accolades. It's so great to hear that you have stuck out your program despite all the challenges. I totally know what you mean by people judging you for not knowing the language. I've lived in Spain 3 years now and I'm in the process of getting my driving license here and the instructor and the examiners are not empathetic that I'm not totally bilingual. It's definitely disheartening and hard, at times, to keep lifting myself up to try yet again, but we can do it, and we know that we can. I can't wait to see your post about receiving your diploma and to see what awesome things you achieve when you have your degree. Let's all celebrate together:-)

Suh Diviner
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018

Dear Jlanghus,
Thanks for welcoming me on world pulse. Sorry about your licence issue. In my country, it is either you are bilingual or not. I am happy today because i can express myself in both languages and sure you can by now.
Yes we can do it through Christ who strengthens us.
I will keep you informed on when i receive my diploma.

Jill Langhus
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018

You're welcome:) Thanks. Yes, that's a true gift to be bilingual. I keep working at it and will continue to do so. I don't give up so easily:) Can't wait to hear the good news!

Suh Diviner
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018

Good to hear that you don't give up easily. A good spirit you have.
Yes i will share the good news !

Jill Langhus
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018

Sometimes I wish that I did. Life would be simpler, but it's not in my DNA. Great! Hope you have a great day.

Suh Diviner
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018

Haha great day too.

Jill Langhus
Apr 30, 2018
Apr 30, 2018

Thank you:-)

Juvita Akumah
May 24, 2018
May 24, 2018

Hello my dear Diviner, I am happy to join you here.Thanks for sharing your story.