A Death Trap Called Kashmir

Sumera Reshi
Posted September 29, 2019 from United Arab Emirates
Crackdown in Kashmir

A Death Trap Called Kashmir

 

My fingers ached to dial my landline. The constant dialling also led to frustration. Like a cardiograph, I could feel the formation of the crests and troughs, my heartbeat became inconsistent and I could notice that my heartbeat went up and down very fast as if it has gone for a marathon.  Weird thoughts wrapped my mind and I became very restive. After the break of 20 minutes, I tried again to call home but the reply was ‘this number doesn’t exist.’ Same like Kashmir doesn’t exist now in the world.

I was really tired of this Indian drama, imprisoning people for 55 days at a stretch. My weekend went to dialling and redialling. I lost hope and thought to leave this quest of calling home. Nevertheless, my heart and mind went into confrontation a la India and Pakistan over Kashmir. At last, my heart won over my logical mind, same as Premier Imran Khan’s speech won the bruised hearts of besieged Kashmiris.

I followed the Scottish King, Robert Bruce’s story, try try again. So, I tried and tried, until the Indian telecom BSNL bowed before my will power and thus connected me to home.

The bell rang and rang.

Hello, who is this?

Me: For a while, I couldn’t speak as if something stuck in my throat. Before my father could drop the line, I spoke. It is me. Just wanna know how are you.

Father: He began to cough as if he had never coughed before. I could feel his eyes protruding while coughing. But he couldn’t speak and handed over the phone to my brother.

Brother: Hello, it is me, how are you?

Me: I am all right. Tell me about you. How are you? I heard curfew has been lifted. So try to consult Cardiologist for dad.

Brother: Don’t follow the rumour mill. We are under constant curfew and the situation is very chaotic here. Can you hear gunshots? Did you hear dad coughing? It is because there is a haze of smoke due to pepper gas and this has created another havoc for us. How can I consult a doctor when nothing works? Kashmir, at present, is a house of betrayal and terror.

After a while, my dad resumed his breath and I could visualize his plight due to the tear /pepper gas smoke since he has Asthma and cardiac problems.

Me: Dad are you alright? Please take care of yourself, don’t go out even for a walk, I suggested like a motivational Guru.

Dad: I don’t go out rather none goes out. We are in prison for 55 days. Life is like a hell to us all. I wanna breathe but can’t because the air is filled with this deadly smoke called pepper gas. I tell you something. You take care of yourself. I don’t know whether I shall be alive or dead. This gas is killing us slowly. Don’t stay silent. Tell our stories of misfortune to the silent world. Don’t worry about me but be a storyteller. We are in invisible chains, our voices muted and our lives have reached to a dead end. Even if we try to run, we can’t. A deadly fire is chasing us and when we try to escape it we have a vast ocean where we fear to be drowned.  So we are in a death trap.

With these words, he sighed! As if he has lost trust in peace, in reconciliation,  democratic West and especially on the defunct UN.

Before the call could be disconnected, he said, ‘only divine intervention’ can save because the whole world is dead and their criminal silence is deadly than this pepper gas/tear gas.

The call dropped. I felt so bad about the guardians of democracy and peace, custodians of the world and the helper of fragile and wispy. The so-called superpowers and economic giants to Kashmir are walking dead idols.  Amidst this, I received a piece of news which read that seven people have been martyred by the so-called security forces. My beloved youth were gunned downed against stones. What a comparison. Kudos to the democratic world that we have two Palestines now. One in the Arabian peninsula and another in South Asia under the controls of two Uncle Sams. Sandwiching Kashmir and Palestine in a death trap and we have no escape from this death trap at this juncture.

 

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        Sumera B. Reshi

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Tamarack Verrall
Sep 29
Sep 29

Dear Sumera,
The only celebration here is to know that you have been able to have such a long awaited phone contact with your family. I will private message you to discuss this, but I hope that all of us can find ways to get the news of what is happening in Kashmir to our national news networks, in hope of creating some international pressure for peace.
With love in Sisterhood,
Tam

Sumera Reshi
Sep 29
Sep 29

Dear Tam,

Thank you so much for your continued support. Yes, we need to create international pressure. It is not only about 56th day of curfew or the communication blockade but our rights as a free nation. We want complete freedom from India. No more no less.

Regards,
Sumera

Hello, Sumera,

I’m glad you were able to talk with your brother and father. But I’m saddened to know the gas is making your father worse. This is breaking my heart as well esp you confirmed that the curfew was not lifted at all. It’s agonizing really.

Please take care alway. I’m praying for divine intervention. Hugs, dear.

Sumera Reshi
Sep 29
Sep 29

Dear Karen,
Thanks for your concern. This is not just the story of my father but millions of Kashmir. They have been imprisoned for the last 56 days and there is no escape. It is agonizing. I am not satisfied that I am safe, I am worried about thousands of my people in Kashmir and around the world. My problem is, as the civilized world, I can't be a mute spectator.
Regards,
Sumera

You're welcome, dear. Yes, I understand. We can only be at peace when we know our family is in a peaceful state. Has there been a petition on Change.org to stop end the crisis in Kashmir?

Hugs,
Karen

Sumera Reshi
Sep 30
Sep 30

My people aren't in a peaceful state. Have you seen any democratic country caging people for 57 days consecutively? No, you haven't and neither have I. These nasty things happen in India only. Change.org is banned here so can't open the page.

Yes, that's true that is why unless they are in a peaceful state, it is understandable that we cry in agony for them even when we are far away. That is what I meant in my previous comment, dear. I cry in agony with you all, too. Hugs.

Sumera Reshi
Oct 01
Oct 01

Dear Karen, I can feel that agony in your words. Thanks for your continous support.

You’re always welcome, sis.

Lisbeth
Sep 29
Sep 29

Dear Sumera,
How are you? Pls take care of yourself. It's not easy for you I can see but you need to be strong for yourself and your entire family.
It's good to hear you can reach your family. My sincere prayer goes for you.
Regards

Sumera Reshi
Sep 30
Sep 30

Dear Lisbeth,

I am strong and my concern isn't for my family only. It is my people under siege. And I tell you, I am an emotional fool. I feel the pain and I can't hide it.

Lisbeth
Sep 30
Sep 30

It's normal dear you are a human with affection.
Shall be well one day.
Take care of yourself.

Jill Langhus
Sep 30
Sep 30

Hello Dear Sumera,

My heart bleeds for you and your family. It's so lovely to see the continuing support you're getting from your World Pulse sisters, though. I will continue to pray for you, your family and everyone else who is being affected by this war.

XX

Sumera Reshi
Oct 03
Oct 03

Thanks for being with me, Jill.

Jill Langhus
Oct 04
Oct 04

You bet! You're very welcome, honey:-)

XX