Being an Indian female growing up in apartheid times in the 70's means you shut up and suck it up. Oppression was accepted as a dessert. Not only did i have to deal with political abuse but abuse in the home also, cos it was my fault my mom had given birth to a girl child before marriage and the father denied the paternity and walked away. The abuse and discrimination never ended regardless of prayer, faith, searching. Till today im sitting in the darkness and cry. No matter how hard you try to pull yourself up and out you cant.