Take of the mask, speak your truth, & fly free as the beautiful diamond that you were created to be

Tehilah Williams
Posted September 22, 2019 from United Kingdom

Hey wonderful sisters, 

I wanted to personally share a life lesson that I had to learn, once The most high released me from all my silent pains of broken wounds. I hope that this blog will encourage someone today who has gone through sexual, emotional, abuse of any sort and can recieve something from this.

As I speak out, I speak to the broken, the inner child within me and you, that desperately needed someone to let me know as I was growing up to my adult years that there is always light at the end of the tunnel and you will come out stronger although your eyes cannot see just yet. 

I was once a victim, of abuse, in every form and I would never wish that on anybody because it can be very draining. I often question myself wondering why I wasn't so messed up and still remained a nice person regardless of my own scars. There are so many women out there who experience abuse on all levels who are to afraid to speak up. I truly believe they are afraid of being judged, ashamed feeling like they will not be taken seriously, because many people would rather not deal with the matter due to their own demons.

I remember their being a time where I felt like I couldn't speak out to my mother, afraid that she would not do anything or hear me out. So during my school days, I suffered in silence, asking God why has this happened to me. 

A few years past, and I noticed that I was forming a invisible mask, hiding behind the makeup and clothes, desperately hoping that nobody would be able to read my pain. To make matters worse I kept attracting the same type of manipulative men into my life, because I was so broken. I so desperately wanted to be loved, but soon realised that I was seeking that from the wrong person. I didn't even love myself at that point so how could I expect that from somebody else? You ever heard that saying " You will attract who you are or where you are at"? well that was my cycle. I didn't  know how to deal with all that pain so I buried it deep in my heart lying to myself that I am good.

After giving my life over to God, which felt like the last resort for me at the time, I started learning more about myself, understanding why things were the way they were, and what to do in order to be free because quite frankly I was tired!!!!

I realized, that I was constantly trying to heal myself in my own way with the wrong things, and I never quite came to terms with everything that happened. I convincing myself and others that I was totally fine when in reality, I was not fully stable emotionally.

To all you beautiful women and young girls who are suffering in silence, I encourage you to speak your truth and take back your power. No longer will you hold it in and suppress it, but express it! 

Freedom does not come by being silent, but comes from being open, forgiving yourself understanding that what ever happened to you was not your fault. We must speak our truth to the so we can find some healing and also encourage others to come forward and express their pain. Ladies and young women, You are not your past but a new person of power, hope, confidence, able to do whatever you will to. These abusers may have thought they have won, but when you get out of that bed, out of that depression you soon realise that they have lost the battle! 

It is time for us women to take our power back and uplift each other, as we all come from different walks and backgrounds.

Shine in the beauty and confidence that God, has given you and take back your control and be empowered as we are all queens. This means that each of us hold alot of value to the community and we can help stop the cycle for the next generation to come.

Stay blessed and remember that each one of you is loved and destined to be something great.

Thank you for reading..

 

Your sister.

 

 

This story was submitted in response to GirlForce: Unscripted and Unstoppable.

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Lisbeth
Sep 22
Sep 22

Dear Tehillah,
You are very welcome to world pulse. Here you get to speak up without hiding under cover or mask.
I am very happy to hear that you have finally found yourself. Now you definitely defined your own identify. That is very marvelous.

Congrats on your first story and I wish you a great weekend.
Regards

Tehilah Williams
Sep 23
Sep 23

Thank you sister, I really appreciate, your words. I am more than in a good place now. I know my identity in The most high, and ot feels good to encourge others. This is the first time I have stepped out and spoke on this subject so I look at this as a breakthrough and open door to great things to come. I already feel empowered just by writing this. It is time to use my gift to help others and I am so happy inwas forwarded to this page as it helps me to grow in confidence and boldness. :)

Time to write my book and this website has a part to play in going forward. God is amazing in how he moves.

Much thanks.

Lisbeth
Sep 23
Sep 23

Yes he work through us humans you know. I am glad through someone you find out about us.
Here it's all about speaking up and being confident, haha.
Sure go write your book and don't forget to post it here.
Cheers :-)

Jill Langhus
Sep 23
Sep 23

Hello Tehilah,

Welcome to World Pulse:-) Wow! What a powerful story, and first post! I love your message and empowering message. I can't believe this is your first time speaking up, but you will definitely empower so many others to step out of the shadows and to reclaim their power. I'm looking forward to hearing more about your mission and book plans.

Hope you have a great week!

XX

Tehilah Williams
Sep 23
Sep 23

Thank you so much sister, I apreciate your feedback. Yes has most definitely caught me if guard but I am glad it did. One of missions is to encourage and empower women, and I realise more now that it starts with my own testimonies. Thanks so much for the warm welcome here definitely feels like a family look forward to writing more and what's ahead.

Jill Langhus
Sep 23
Sep 23

You're very welcome:-)

Telling our stories is so healing, and claiming our voice and power is as well. I also came from an abusive background, so I know healing is a journey, but you sound like you're well on your way, dear. It's so nice to see, truly:-)

Well, that's certainly a great and noble mission, dear. Yes, it is a lovely, and safe family here:-)

Great! Looking forward to it!

XX

Tehilah Williams
Sep 24
Sep 24

Most definitely I agree with everything you said.

Jill Langhus
Sep 25
Sep 25

Awesome:-) Hope you're doing well, and having a great week, dear!

XX

Tamarack Verrall
Sep 23
Sep 23

Dear Tehillah,
A big welcome to World Pulse, where we are coming together to honour the stories that we each carry. I agree with you, it can be so difficult for women and girls to speak out, "..they are afraid of being judged, ashamed feeling like they will not be taken seriously". Here, we know that these forms of violence are happening everywhere, and we are here to support each other and to create change. I love your message to all that we are destined to be great. Together I believe that we are creating a new world, one in which women and girls are respected, safe and free.
In sisterhood,
Tam

Tehilah Williams
Sep 24
Sep 24

Thank you tam, thankyou for taking the time to read.

Hello, Tehilah,

What a beautiful name you have! Welcome to World Pulse. It is with joy that we welcome another voice rising up from the United Kingdom. Your message is exactly what World Pulse is created for: women to speak up! So may I also say, " Welcome home!"

This is such a powerful first post. A lot what you wrote resonated with me. So empowering! I hope you to read more from you. Thank you for sharing!

Tehilah Williams
Oct 02
Oct 02

Thank you Karen much love to you.

You're welcome, dear. Have a great day!