Lost myself to life and I hold that - Abhishek Saharia

Lost myself to life and i hold that

Satan be smiling, where god at ?

Bonds once broken are difficult to make,

How you trust bonds when people are fake.

How do you expect a garden when you are one destroying the seeds ?

Blaming god for everything but its his biggest blessing that you breathe.

You never know what’s going in somebody’s life,

Before passing judgements just think for it twice,

Looking at them smiling in front, you don’t know at their back who is holding the knife.

People will come and try to push you from your track,

They wait for fall to stab you in your back.

Left all alone it’s hard but it is a fact,

Pain became my friend and i got to hug that.

Saw their tears they wanted me again,

Trusted them blinded i didn’t notice they were standing in rain.

Scared of the cuts i hide under my people for shade,

Little did i know they were the one holding the blade.

Had mental health classes they know how to read expression,

They say i smile alot i am definitely in depression.

You look at the roses i look at the thorns,

That is why you see my laughs but ignore the mourns.

Its funny how nobody stands by,

Ignoring the shame they all cry when you die.

From degrading me, to not respecting my decision,

I got to know they don’t understand my vision.

I was the one protecting them from flood,

They were the ones enjoying watching me loosing my blood.

Doctors said it’s a miracle that i’m still alive,

My medicine is my mother’s smile that encouraged me to survive.

You send me a death threat and feel better,

I’ll still laugh and consider it a love letter. - Abhishek Saharia