Lost myself to life and I hold that - Abhishek Saharia

Shivani Saharia
Posted August 29, 2020 from India

Lost myself to life and i hold that

Satan be smiling, where god at ?

Bonds once broken are difficult to make,

How you trust bonds when people are fake.

How do you expect a garden when you are one destroying the seeds ?

Blaming god for everything but its his biggest blessing that you breathe.

You never know what’s going in somebody’s life,

Before passing judgements just think for it twice,

Looking at them smiling in front, you don’t know at their back who is holding the knife.

People will come and try to push you from your track,

They wait for fall to stab you in your back.

Left all alone it’s hard but it is a fact,

Pain became my friend and i got to hug that.

Saw their tears they wanted me again,

Trusted them blinded i didn’t notice they were standing in rain.

Scared of the cuts i hide under my people for shade,

Little did i know they were the one holding the blade.

Had mental health classes they know how to read expression,

They say i smile alot i am definitely in depression.

You look at the roses i look at the thorns,

That is why you see my laughs but ignore the mourns.

Its funny how nobody stands by,

Ignoring the shame they all cry when you die.

From degrading me, to not respecting my decision,

I got to know they don’t understand my vision.

I was the one protecting them from flood,

They were the ones enjoying watching me loosing my blood.

Doctors said it’s a miracle that i’m still alive,

My medicine is my mother’s smile that encouraged me to survive.

You send me a death threat and feel better,

I’ll still laugh and consider it a love letter. - Abhishek Saharia

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Nini Mappo
Aug 29
Aug 29

Wow Shivani! (Are you Abhishek too?)
Your poem is depth and marathon, because it has so much in it bust still flows!
"How do you expect a garden when you are one destroying the seeds ?
Blaming god for everything but its his biggest blessing that you breathe"

I love those two lines and what they say, that sometimes we don't grow because we are sabotaging our growth, and blaming other's for it, which blinds us to the very basic blessings that sustain our lives.

Thank you for sharing.
Sending sparkles wherever you are in the world :)

Shivani Saharia
Aug 29
Aug 29

Hi Nini Mappo,
Good Day
To state that - "Abhishek Saharia" is my younger brother, aged 20. He wrote this poem.

Thanks for read and for your humble response.
Keep shining & blessings !

Ashok Kumar
Aug 30
Aug 30

This is very emotional poem. Beta ,life is full of ups and downs. There is shiny day after every dark night.So trust in god and yourself. We have to face every situation . Every body is facing problems one and the other way. Overall peom is very good and by the heart. God bless you.

Hello, Shivani,

Thank you for sharing with us Abhishek's poem. It resonates with me as someone who have a long battle with depression. I truly understand every line, this one, especially,
"They say i smile alot i am definitely in depression.
You look at the roses i look at the thorns,
That is why you see my laughs but ignore the mourns.
Its funny how nobody stands by,
Ignoring the shame they all cry when you die."

Please tell your brother, "I totally get it. Thank you for bravely putting these into words". Depression is such an internal battle that it's difficult to communicate what's going on.

Please keep on writing, dear! Thank you once again.

Chi8629
Sep 17
Sep 17

Thank you for sharing Sister.
Stay bless darling .