“Stop those things that make you ask me 1$ every month!” this was the voice! The voice I could not avoid! Avoiding hearing it again and again in my head was like avoiding hearing that I am a girl! But why should I wonder why I am a girl? Why should I have to stop that trigger that made me realize who I really am? Why should I have to think and rethink about what I can do to stop that so called “those things” _my periods? That natural part of becoming a woman! That gift of reproduction!
My periods could be a pain, but they have never been painful as getting “stop those things that make you ask me 1$ every month!” in a reply when I asked him money for pads, and yet he was the only one to whom I could address; my DNA! And being sixteen, what I could do was asking myself a thousand questions without getting a clear response!
What if get pregnant? But I can avoid this for only nine months!
Oooh… I can get pregnant again and again! But if I could not even get 1$ for my pads, how may I find more for my babies pampers?
I will do any job; so my babies won’t lose anything! But why can’t I start work now for my pads and save for my babies to come in the future?
I kept wondering why and asking myself a lot of questions, and most of them were stupid but others led me to where I am now. I could not react fast to have a vision if that was not the reply I got on my ultimate need. It was a choc in my heart, a cargo that I could not handle to the destination, but I could pass it to the right truck.
Since then I could call myself the child of the community! I had to know what to ask and to whom to ask it to! I had to remember everyone’s contribution to my life for which I owe success! I realized that however important my problem may be, I could not get support from the one I thought was in charge of me! I have been humbled to get help from all those kind people around me and swore to give back to the community.
When I hear the same voice again, I know I have to work hard to be successful in my life and protect other girls out there to never get the same reply on their turns. In the line of my vision, I can’t stop equipping parents with important information to provide the most affectionate and psychologically supportive environment to their children.
I can’t stop those things that made me ask my parent 1$ every month, but I can buy pads for myself and more for the needy in my community.