Dear Diary

Dear Diary

Sorry I haven't written in a while now...I just haven't been inspired to do so...I feel ....slightly empty,a bit disappointed and well just out of it also...Out of what you might ask? Out of well every thing..I feel like I am in the dessert with just enough water to keep me alive but not enough to feel empowered to do anything else.

Its weird really being here after having been on the mountain top a week or so ago...These darn emotions,these are the times that I hate them...yes I know 'hate" is a pretty strong word,but at this moment in time,its the truth. Feelings ,feelings feelings.They empower you and the very next moment they cut the live supply off and you seem to be barely making it,surely life cant be that drastic in its changing???

Come on Connie,get a grip of yourself,you are a women,a fine one too. You know better than to rely on emotions??? Change them,if you don't like them,unless you like feeling helpless???Unfortunately,while you are FEELING down,the world keeps on turning,and time keeps on moving and your vision keeps trailing behind,so when you do finally come around,you will need to be playing catch up....Ahhhhhhhhhh life isn't fair,but there you go,thats life...

OK...I AM BACK.....No time to waste on pity parties...everyone has the same 24hours..i will make mine count,everyday...