Surviving and rising from abusive marriages

I have endured the worst any women can even/possibly go through in a marriage life.

I grew up imagining marriage life being the best. But to my disappointment I experienced the opposite.

I got married in Dec 2009 to someone I thought cared for me. Only to be given a wake up call.

The man was abusive, a womanizer and cold hearted person. He did not have a steady job I was more of the breadwinner. It started on my first pregnancy, if i got sick he would shout at me all the way to the hospital saying all nasty things.

Just after a year I told my family that I can no longer live with this man but all they would say is that's how marriages are like jus be strong.

I couldn't I live a zombie life dreading to go home from work hoping that he doesn't return home. I had my 1st born 2010 and my second born in 2011. 

Things got worst. He would force himself me violently. One time he twisted my leg and hurt my knee. I still have a knee problem til this day.

I became to feel lifeless each day. Cry by myself in bed at work even walking in town.

My kids only made me feel I have something to live for. I honestly sometimes thought that it ws better being dead than alive

Then God intervened. It came to light that he had impregnated his blood sister from father's side and his aunt's daughter. By then we were staying at my parent's place. The truth was finally relieved to my relatives and chased him away. That was the first time I felt relieved in life. That was Jan 2013.

From that time, I have been raising my beautiful kids on my own. It has been hard on me. I started getting sick, was off work weekly and was forced to leave. The doctors couldn't find the problem. I have struggled with the bills, and kids school fees. Sometimes they would go a month or two without going to school. It pained me.

Now I am jus starting to get back on my feet. Left my job a year ago because of my illness. Now I want to start a project of my own. Still looking for capital and investors. 

I am glad I now have self esteem and becoming confident with life.

I am grateful that I have an opportunity to speak out and maybe there are women out there going through the same.

One should not stay in marriage jus because you will be afraid what people will say.