The meaning of my name

Diana Vegas
Posted September 14, 2010 from Venezuela

I am named after my mother's sister; aunt Diana. She was unable to carry more children after her firstborn. Growing up i was not very fond of the name, my father and brother are named the same so i was unable to understand why i was not named after my mother. It might have help to my discontent that my aunt was somewhat Lunar and one could never guess her mood, sometimes overjoyuss sometimes cold and distante.

In school i rejoyced when i learned what Diana ment in Roman mythology and it's greek counterpart Artemis. This was my first approach to femenine goddess archetypes, it sparked my interest to find "myself" among them, I was barely 9 y.o.

When I turned 15 my mother, sort of invading my privacy, took all my early poems, writting and drawings and printed them as a published book, harcover and all, engraved in golden letter "Artemis" was the tittle.

Since then It has becomed my feeling that our own name can bring up separetly or all together all the different aspects of one's self. It unveils, only to ourselves (and who we let it) what we think and judge about what is TRUE within, It 'hides' very well all of who we are, This is true to each of us.

In this sense I frecuently try to separate what IS from that happens. Many thing happen outside, even if some of that happens to me That which happens many times differ from that which IS within me, how is that light?, that shape? that world? most of all WHO AM I? I try to keep my focus in that that goes out of me instead of facing my stare on what comes in. It is only healthy and sane to keep a filter in what we allow in, thought, words, feelings and actions. Instead try to free what flow from your 'true you' outwards.

I hope always to have shed some light, for I know my shadow.

In lake'ch: I am another you.

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  • Carri Pence
    Sep 14, 2010
    Sep 14, 2010

    You could have been defined by so many names but in the end you were define by yourself and that is what i love about your writing. You were given the name of your Aunt and yet you weren't defined by her roller coaster of emotions. And though you felt a connection with Artemis, your book was titled with her name but was driven and empowered by your thoughts and creativity. Thanks for this and I look forward to hearing more from you.

    With compassion and friendship, Carri Pence

  • ladyblue
    Sep 20, 2010
    Sep 20, 2010

    Thanks for sharing. My dad said my name, Lorebeth, was taken from Our Lady of Lourdes and Queen Elizabeth, combined. I was wondering if he wished I would grow up to be a religious woman and a queenly one at the same time. Later on, I found that the name Beth also means House of God. Well that was a pressure and a challenge at the same time. What's in a name? A lot, I guess. But we are who we are .. the way we were created and hopefully we will fulfill what we were born for.

  • Diana Vegas
    Sep 21, 2010
    Sep 21, 2010

    Thanks for sharing, im sure deep inside you are a Queen indeed. Don't let your fear build a big lonely castle. You shine through i can tell!