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My candles and papers were the friends I choose to have after my friends left me either because they got married or because they left the country. I started to feel lonely although there were many people around me, but it was me who stepped aside from them. I didn’t think to have a boyfriend because I didn’t trust men and I was afraid to love, also my shyness isolated me!

I start dreaming of talking to famous people and debate with them, discuss my issues, dream of attending conferences to feel that I exist and that I can help, but they were only dreams. I wasn’t confident with myself this is why I escaped to my dreams where everything is easy. Although the world I created has all what I wanted and what I wished to have but I wasn’t happy.

I decided to meet people on internet; virtual people who are similar to the one I created in my mind, but this time they are real. Different languages, cultures, religions, traditions and knowledge I didn’t know about before; I started to exchange mine with those virtual friends, and one was interested in my thoughts; he liked my ideas and the way I think and was surprised in how I isolated myself away although I have what I need to change and to be changed, he was my window to the Western world. After 9 months he visited me, a man entered my life! It was the point that changed my life. I still remember that night when he came; I was wondering how does he looks like and how he will accept me, what would he say when he meet this dreaming girl? Through him I could know who really I am; he revealed to me many things I was blind of, even in myself.

He took my hand and raised me up, he introduced me to the world, and he removed that bubble and set me free. Now I can share my ideas with people because I believed that my ideas worth to be heard, I believe in myself and that I can help people and sometimes change their lives, he taught me how to take actions and how to actively engage in the journey of life with more self confidence… the real journey to happiness.

Now I trust men, I feel I am important and that I have many friends who loves me the reason I love life.

Thank you Mr. Andy Wilkins that you trusted and believed in me, thank you for being my friend.

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there are times wen we feel alone though we are in a crowd. I myself ave gone from this phase many times.while reading your story. it seemed to me that you have poured mu life into words.I exactly had the same situation and to get rid of my loneliness and to prove myself i started socializing.talking and sharing things with others gave me peace in my mind.

I am glad to hear that you have started believing men and have started to live life with much more confidence. we really need someone who can show us the right direction and the reason to live. living life alone is very hard.

Stay happy

Peace and Love Pooza

Hi Pooza and thank you for your comment!

I am happy that you are here in this community which proves to me that in this life there are people of love who through their smiles can spread peace; the one we need as a first step to trust people... I still see my friends smile which brought me here!

I studied Body Language and NLP (Neuro Linguistics Programming) so I had even more close view and understanding to people (specially men) which gave more self confidence and brought happiness to my life. without my friend by my side, I wouldn't be here.

Stay happy and know that we can be true friends here too! Love, peace & respect always, Fufu

Ammoura, Fawzia

Dear Fawzia,

While reading your story, it felt to me that you are sharing with us something very personal. It touched me deeply. in solidarity and sisterhood, khulud

I was very shy in a way I was avoiding talking to people and specially men, but dealing with my friend I could feel that some men are interested in women minds and thoughts more than anything else, and to share my story with you means to encourage others not to allow their shyness to isolate them from the world because the world needs them.

Thank you for your comment Khulud :-)

Ammoura, Fawzia

Fawzia, I am so happy for you. We all yearn for someone to connect with on a deeper level and it seems as if you have found such a person. I can sense your radiance and confidence as you write this, and could not be more thrilled for you. It is such a gift to have a friend whom you can be free with and with whom you can share everything without fear of judgment or criticism. Wishing you well in this new-found friendship, Janice

Thank you Janice for your kindly supportive words... I can now say that I well used my words and meanings to tell MyStory. I l loved each word you wrote... once a friend inter your heart, soul and mind peacefuly without even your permission, you will feel that you are not alone and is living in peace and it is hard to lose this peaceful feelings!! This is what happened to me; when my friends left me I realized how much important to me they were and I thought it is the end till I found my new friend who encouraged me to communicate and connect with more people... and it was the beginning! Friends are a great treasure I will forever cherish.

Ammoura, Fawzia

Thank you for sharing your story with us Fawzia. It is a testament to the value of human connection. I am happy you have found a friend to share your journey and that you continue to inspire each other along the way!

In Kindness, Gretchen

Thank you Gretchen for your comment! :-) The value of human connection is a great one indeed; the more people I meet the more I know myself and the more I understand the world around me... once I learn all that I could have the key to change myself then people around me. and when I talk about changing I mean changing people's ideas and thoughts, this is the real and effective changing. I am still living in the same place, the same lifestyle, same environment, working in the same job, dealing with the same people but I changed because I changed my ideas and thoughts.

With much love always, Fufu

Ammoura, Fawzia

Im so glad and happy for you thank God , thank Mr. Andy who take your hand in the life ,sometime the human have the hidden energe and the powers but he cant use it or shy from something

so true friends who can share your ideas with people because they believed that your ideas worth to be heard and you are agreat all friends like to share your ideas

may be sometime i write about my true friend !!!!!!

your friens asmahan

You are right Asmahan; we all have power, a great one, the power of ideas and thoughts that need someone who can teach you how to invest them not to lose them... and because they are true friends they take your hand and help you without asking for something in return! True friendship is a treasure.... and you are one of my best friends Asmahan, you supported me a lot and I hope I can do the same for you.... Good luck for you in the journey of your life :-)

With much much love always, Fufu

Ammoura, Fawzia

Dear Fufu, I am so proud of you i know how is it hard to write about this personal staff .I am sure when you are a brave to write such a things like this you a ready to start you journey to find your real reason which you create for I have full confidence with you before you at last find confidence in yourself I always do even when we were at collage. confidence means being strong ; being strong to love being strong to give, being strong to help , being strong to cry without shyness. I am writing this words and really I miss you I miss to see the gorgeous smile that make me feel there is still truth and green fields in the Smokey sky . you know fufu all of us had that feeling sometimes we escape from reality trying to find our imagination world full of love and happiness even I know sometimes our life turns to be so cruel but if there is still a smile like you have we could forget all that dark side of life. In life in real life sometimes you find gift from God you never dream of even better than dreams that is why we are living with hope every stage of life have problems and bad times when you feel like you're alone and the darkness is the king Here use you magic take your brush starts drawing with colors fill the darkness with your weapon of goodness show all how strong the power of love is. love you Fufu Alaa

Dear Fufu, I am so proud of you i know how is it hard to write about this personal staff .I am sure when you are a brave to write such a things like this you a ready to start you journey to find your real reason which you create for I have full confidence with you before you at last find confidence in yourself I always do even when we were at collage. confidence means being strong ; being strong to love being strong to give, being strong to help , being strong to cry without shyness. I am writing this words and really I miss you I miss to see the gorgeous smile that make me feel there is still truth and green fields in the Smokey sky . you know fufu all of us had that feeling sometimes we escape from reality trying to find our imagination world full of love and happiness even I know sometimes our life turns to be so cruel but if there is still a smile like you have we could forget all that dark side of life. In life in real life sometimes you find gift from God you never dream of even better than dreams that is why we are living with hope every stage of life have problems and bad times when you feel like you're alone and the darkness is the king Here use you magic take your brush starts drawing with colors fill the darkness with your weapon of goodness show all how strong the power of love is. love you Fufu Alaa