More Deep Inside, part of solution

I will use the rest of my life to be active, meaningful, not for only my self but for the two litters lives who growth everyday. Personally, I like to see myself as well as my family have financial secure, stay healthy be a good mother who will support my children education and build them to be a good person, helpful for society. Personal, I want to see myself as professional journalist, educator, psychologist, skillful author who have ability to create connection network and support the other by new way of education, interaction , creation, mean the way that empower women, help them to see their strength build their inner energy like world pulse has been doing so far.
I am a part of solution. I want to see the world where people live in dignity and peacefully, the world that free from violent, corruption and natural resource destruction. I would love to see new generation will create a better space for humanity, change the way of leading, build their confident, feel secure what they have expressed, talking freely about their concern... I want to see sustainable development for all. While the violent and corruption occupied the society, the poor will be the most vulnerable. The corrupt court system would bring profit for the rich and powerful person especially related to the sensitive issue like land issue, where the development take place like city and the big land for economic concession. I hope to see accountable leaders as well as followers, public service will be provided equally, people over profit.
In Cambodia was totally destructed by the turmoil regime and we develop the country by the out side aids and our own natural resource which lead to the huge forest destruction which benefit the powerful and rich people. In Cambodia we face with freedom of expression, we could not criticize the high ranking person in public, we will charge of defamation. The huge gape between the rich and the poor, create the crimes, jobless, cheating because low education. Only people in the city could access information and got high education.
Cambodia could not develop alone; we are among the other country around the world. Develop in the globalization, we face with high competition, we got double effect, positive side we are among the other in technology development, our life seem more comfortable with new creation and modern equipments. However, we also face with high challenging with our low capacity to adapt the negative effect. Before we only poor, but now we poor and also own the debt. The debt because we need to pay for our health care, for our child education and so on…, when the health care system was privatization. People need to struggle with their living and earn to pay debt.
Sure!! this program will bring back my inspiration to fight against my confusion. The common questions for me are, why am I exist here, what I am doing and what I am going to do for life, it is meaningful, what I am working here, do I satisfy with it, what is my real need? how many people got benefit from my work…?
Absolutely, I am among the person who lost innate female wisdom, I could not fulfill my dream, I sometimes argue with my self, I feel anxious , like I want to build a castle within one day. The more I become anxious, I become tired, I am not satisfy, something that I can not control. Sometime I am difficult to go to sleep, because a lot of things jumping to my brain. Because I fear I do not believe my self, think something that I going to do and make the conversation. I may repeat the bad experience. it seem I am so confusing. However, I have a dream, I want to be professional journalist who skill full of web 2.0, could create the blog and help other to create their own blog. So the voice of our future will be my best tools to make me achieve my goal. VOF help me to see my strength sharp my direction, find the potential in me. I could help my society; first I help my self to be strong and full of energy.