What do you do when your inner most feeling is calling out to you?

Three years ago I felt my inner voice calling out to me, but my conscious got the better of me and I decided not to follow it. This led to one of the biggest regrets of my life from which I have learnt to always trust and follow my instincts for reasons beyond our understanding.

The 22nd February 2008 was one of the strangest days I have ever experienced. On this particular morning, I was overcome with a sadness, which I could not explain. My eyes constantly filled with tears for no reason and unlike my normal happy self, I felt very lost and distant from the world and those around me.

On arrival to work, a sudden need to call my sister became apparent. It was not something someone had said but of a strong urge. I could not think of why this would be and what was so important. As the day unraveled, everything which I did seemed to lead to one thing; which was to get in touch with my sister. In particular I distinctly remember reading a newspaper article about a young boy who passed away and for a few seconds my eyes filled with tears as I suddenly thought of my nephew Aditya, who was also of the same age. As work was busy, I brushed these emotions aside and continued with my tasks and thought no more on this.

As I got home, I came to find out that my nephew Aditya was seriously ill in hospital and was literally on his last breath. Later that evening at 7:30, my nephew sadly passed away of pneumonia at the age of 1 year and 3 months. Had I listened to my instincts, maybe I could have spoken to him just once to say everything will be okay and listen to his voice for the last time.

Although I can not change the past, I can only learn from my experiences and make sense of situations which are uncontrollable. This being that some how your instincts are not just feelings which come from within us but rather messages from God, to direct us to do certain things in life. It’s not written down, it’s not spoken, but it’s a feeling which only you will understand and need to follow.

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Oh Jyotsna, I am so sorry you had to experience this loss. I too have had similar instinctual feelings and reactions, but never anything quite as extreme. It is all we can do to learn from our past and trust in ourselves. Thank you for sharing your story.

Hi Jyotsna,

How sad and I am truly sorry for your family's loss. Its true we often have these instinctive feelings, but it is also true that we commonly cast them aside and do not listen to them. Remember that you felt the sadness and you were feeling the loss already. Regret has no relevance to that.

Take care,

Aarti

Dear Jyotsna,

It is so difficult not to regret a missed chance to give one last expression of our love to someone close to us before they go ... but as you say so wisely: "Although I can not change the past, I can only learn from my experiences and make sense of situations which are uncontrollable." There is nothing to regret if you take a lesson from what happened ... a lesson to honor Aditya by cherishing the memories you had with him, listening to your instincts, and always holding your loved ones close.

Peace be with you,

Kati

resolved this year to think twice and to smile twice before doing anything