Just World Hypothesis : I choose me!

My upbringing shielded us from any violence and confrontations. My parents tried by all means to instill in us tenets of love and care.We were taught to give more than we received and that just became my lifestyle.In childhood i would make sure everyone else ate then i would feed on what remained after everyone was satiated.

Taking care of others has become a lifestyle that worked until such a time when the doctor's call sent shrills down my spine.

\"You are hypertensive.You have been stressing a lot\"

I am that woman who always wears a smile all over my body,by this i mean you can feel my smile even by shaking my hand.How on earth would i have high blood pressure.My life seemed to go on really well and my joy still came from taking care of others.

I have sacrificed the little money i have to take people to school.I have made others achieve their dreams through connecting them to opportunities.I have even trained some students to take over my job with the hope that in case of my departure ,the organisation does not suffer.

Believing in the just world hypothesis that what you give is what you get has really messed up my head as in great disappointment i have not received even half of what i have given in.

Lately i was just thinking to myself,' When people have financial constraints they rush to me ,but when i have the same no one shows their face on my door,i am left alone to deal with my situation'

The apex of my anger came when i realised people i had helped from the gutters were at the forefront if people rebelling on me.When they should have stood up for me ,they coiled in their shells and pretended they didn't know me.I felt betrayed.I was angry,not at them but at myself for giving too much and depending so much on people for joy.

I gave myself the best gift,by deciding to 'own' my happiness.I resolved to take care of myself and not depend on any other individual for survival.My decision has really worked as i have retained the bubbly character i had as a child.y family made me happy then,now it's my time to choose wisely people and things that make my heart bubble.

I love travelling and had never really travelled because all the money would g towards helping someone.However,now it's me first before others.I have chosen ton be selfish and treat myself to things i have always given to others than myself.

I now realise that i am a queen and i deserve to treat myself as a queen should.Yea ,there are people in my life who treat me well but i have chosen to take the first step and be king over my life.Giving my all to others and expecting them to give back would be burdensome,People are too busy chasing money,opportunities of their own and sometimes they can forget i exist.I won't forget i exist and i have chosen to be the greatest fan of my character.

I celebrate every achievement nomatter how small.I spend time doing things i love,that is writing ,reading ,and changing people's lives.

I have loved ones in my life and still take care of others,what has changed is my expectations of what people can do for me.I have made a decision to own my happiness and have never been happier.No hypertension ,only JOY.

For every woman that wants to be happy,i would urge you to be responsible for your happiness ,take care of your health and reward yourself for every minute success.

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