fighting my own battle

Dear Friends,

Congratulations for all your captivating stories! I was so impressed reading all your stories and the very inspiring comments. I’ve got a feeling that I’m so in love reading your stories rather than writing my own. Yap! It’s really an uphill battle for me finishing our first assignment especially the last part. I had a brain-freeze, nothing comes out no matter how I tried (I don’t know if this is normal for journalists). And I feel so drained after submitting the last part of our first assignment. Thanks for the short breathing space!

I really found it hard to start writing for our first month assignment, as if I don’t know how to write anymore. Much I enjoyed reading articles and comments every time I logged in to Pulse Wire. My gosh! Such a powerhouse of women correspondents and Pulse Wire team! I really wanted to engage with all of you but I was racing with my interviews, reading and finding the right rhythm and the right timing writing my assignment. I’m fighting my own battle to win against my insecurities, my overstretch time schedules, very demanding work loads ( I need to be 24 /7 on call for quick response ), domestic and maternity concerns and the high demand of concentration and time for writing as a beginner.

Fortunately, I made to submit the last part of our assignment beating the deadline. Not so sure if my write up of my stories is something to be proud of. Though, I’m very happy with the comments from our dear Jennifer and it made me cry. My happiness amplified when we’re (my mentor and I) able to connect and talk over the phone. It was great and a very consoling moment for me after the hard work!

My best wishes to all of you as we join hands in another wonderful journey of discovering ourselves as journalist for women’s voices! Keep believing in ourselves!

Hugs,
malaya