Gender relations affects women's income

How will i ever invest on my self and other economic ventures? I am working, ending money... My husband ends money too!!! But he eventually leaves everything for me to do.. He saves money to buy himself personal stuff and other things.. We are suppose to share responsibility.. We have kids, he abandons everything for me... I make sure there is food in the house, i buy stuff for the family, when they is an Emergency i am the person they call first.. Now because i gave birth to those children... I have to make sure the grow... Do u know he borrowed money from me last month and didnot pay? Even if i am given extra money every month... I will never be rich . .. My money gets finish in the household... They is anunequal power relation between my husband and I.my husband doesn't cooperate with me interms of household expenditure, even the loan i took from the bank for my project will finish in the household.. my husband uses silence dominance ... then my money ends in household. This has an implications on my economic life...I can't Invest in my productive ventures.