LettER TO HER SELF

The word herself has two meanings ; Her and The Self. One denotes my scially constructed self...the other is who I was born to BE.

Dear Her,

You have been in conflict for too long.
You have wondered why for too long.
You have hoped for too long.
You have wished for too long.
You have been in debate over what You are supposed to do, what is expected of You, what others will think of You.

You.

You have been hard on yourself.
The struggle internal continues.
Nothing is what its supposed to be, it may seem so but it is not.

You.

Have put the needs of others first.
You have justified putting the needs of others first.
Who will put YOUr needs FAST/FIRST ?

yoU...

Second guessing if He loves You.
Justifying why He hurt You.
Love has No grey areas.
Love yourself how You would want Him to Love you.
Treat yourself how You treat Him at the moment You are most in Love with (Him) YOUR - SELF

Dear Self,

So close yet so far.
I feel like i have never known You.
A stranger in YOUr own home.

Self...i feel like i have never known you.

Hallo Self.

Do you Know me...are You AND ME SELF the same?
And if so, why do I speak as if you are not me.
Writing this.
Is it you SELF...or is it HER?

This is a reflection of the inner turmoil that I go through trying to BE my TRUTH. my true SELF.

I am forced by society to adapt values, ideas and visions that are not truly mine. My voice i shall shroud No more.

I shall speak. I shall Not bite my tongue again. I shall BE SELF ish.

I am the ChIlD oF a WoMaN!