AM REALLY GRATEFUL TO SHARE MY LIFE EXPERIENCE WITH WOMEN OF DIFFERENT COUNTRIES AS I AM A TOTAL ORPHAN AGED 23 YEARS OLD. WHEN MY PARENTS DIED I WAS LEFT IN CHARGE OF MY FAMILY .I BECAME THE HEAD OF THE FAMILY WHEN I WAS 19 YEARS OLD. BOTH OF MY PARENTS DIED OF HIV AIDS, IT WAS REALLY PAINFUL TO SEE MY MOTHER GO ALL THE SUFFERING SHE UNDER WENT THROUGH, I WAS FILLED WIYH TEARS WHEN I SAW HER GASPING FOR THE LAST BREATH, I TRIED TO FIGURE OUT HOW WILL LIFE GO BECAUSE THERE WAS NO ONE WHO WAS THERE TO TAKE CARE OF US. IT WAS REALLY HARD TO BRING UP MY FOUR SISTERS AND ONE BROTHER . SOMETIMES WE ARE FORCED TO SLEEP HUNGRY BECOUSE OF FOOD SHORTAGE, ALSO WE ARE NOT ABLE TO CATER FOR ALL OUR PERSONAL NEEDS LIKE ,SANITARY TOWELS, BUYING NEW CLOTHES FOR OURSELFS, TO GET A NEW SHOE OR CLOTHE WE HAVE TO GO TO SOMEONES SHAMBA AND WORK THERE. ALSO IT VERY PAINFUL TO SEE MY YOUNGER SISTER WHO WAS BORN WITH THE HIV VIRUS GO THROUGH THE SUFFERING, WHEN SHE IS AILING FROM THE OPPORTUNISTIC DISEASES SHE SUFFERS ALOT BECOUSE I DONT HAVE THE AMOUNT FOR HER MEDICATION . WE ARE ALL IN SCHOOL AND SCHOOL SHOPPING IS ALSO CHALLENGE TO US I CAN NOT BE ABLE TO PROVIDE THEM WITH IT. S SOMETIMES WHEN AM STRESSED WITH THESE ISSUES I GO TO AN EXTENT OF SAYING THAT, I WISH I WAS NOT BORN. SINCERELY SPEAKING WE HAVE GONE AND STILL GOING THROUGH ALOT OF SUFFERING, BUT I BELIEVE THAT ONE DAY IT WILL COME TO AN END SINCE POVERTY HAS GOT NO ROOTS. DESPITE THE DARKNESS WE ARE IN I KNOW THAT ONE DAY SUNSHINE WII BE ON OUR SIDE. RERGADLESS OF THESE ISSUES HAVE NEVER ALLOWED MYSELF TO BE MISUSED BY MEN, BECAUSE MANY HAVE APPROCHED IN NAME THAT IF I FULLFILL THEIR DESIRES THEY ARE GOING TO HELP ME AND MY FAMILY. AS LADY I HAVE MY OWN PRINCIPLES AND I TRY AS HARD AS I CAN TO FOLLOW THEM.

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Hi Prisca,

I'm so glad that you have joined our community and that you've taken this brave step in sharing your story, your fears and your courage with us. You have been through so much, at such a young age.

I'd like to introduce you to some women here on PulseWire who live in Kenya run organizations that help young women like you. Perhaps you can reach out to them and find support for you and your siblings.

Consolata Waithaka Womans Hope http://www.worldpulse.com/user/857

Leonida Odongo Ebony Youth and Orphans Support Initiative Kenya http://www.worldpulse.com/user/635

mamaAfrica Project Africa http://www.worldpulse.com/user/1511

Sophie Ngugi Young Women's Leadership Institute http://www.worldpulse.com/user/788

Please continue to use your journal to share your story. I think you'll find this community to be supportive in your quest for empowerment. We are here and we are listening!

In friendship, Jade

You are a brave girl and will be able to pass this tough period. The darkness will go and give way to sunshine. May God bless you and your family.

In Friendship

Nusrat