A ghost that lives inside all of us

Loneliness is like a ghost, haunting all of us like dead body that was not laid to rest. In all our quest to feed, nourish and take care of her she continues but to fail us. Many years ago when I was a little girl when innocence wrapped me up when I slept at night when my tastes buds celebrated each bite I took I believed in Father Christmas, Christmas presents, tooth fairy and yes that I was whole.

But hey! I wish I can still say that's true because this days my body feels just like it has been invaded by a foreigner with no visa like HI virus seeking to devour the very bit of joy and peace that was given to me as my birth right.

This ghost lives inside of me, groaning and moaning from morning and pushing me to unspeakable things that I later regret and found myself falling into hate with every bit of my being. All of this years I have tried feeding it with material things and starving it with every diet and lately pushed me on my search for Jesus in the sanctuary allowing every promise to filter me like a double edged sword. But none of it! None of it could feed this ghost only it screamed and shouted day and night taking me and what I believe in.

Today!As I face this ghost and I only have one thing to say that the end is near.....and that I know that joy awaits me in the morning.