The smooth crime

I choosed to call my side of the violence story as"the smooth crime" because its not seen , no bruses involved and no scars are noticed.
As I grew up I started realizing that violence is a huge word that contains all the aspects of violence against women,and the violence im talking about here is the most dangerous one in my openion because it letterly destroys women eating them slowly alive!Psychological violence and the fact that the closest people in a girl's life are the one responsible of the psychological abuse, it could be a relative,a father or even a mother, and till this moment im writting those words im not sure if there are excuses that makes sense to me working as a motive for abusers to justify psychological violence against women and girls.
In my community boys enjoy way better lifestyle than girls starting with the gender bias practiced in families for the favour of males over females,males enjoy more motivational actions and support by the parents,they are heard when they talk,they get to choose when to get married or not and not being judged by the community no matter how a " loser" he is , also not judged by the community if they did anything wrong while females suffer even if they did nothing compared to males.
I grew up thinking that this the regular ,right and normal life that a girl should get only because she is a girl , a woman in my community get a job faster than men , not because she is good or she is educated enough ,but beacuse she gets paid lower than men and if she was pretty,then she will pay for that being sexually abused. Psychological violence against women by other women is rearely talked about,from my own environment and society this kind of violence starts with the mother abuses her daughter psychologically andemotionally for the favour of her son, the fact that this is not well discussed issue doesn't mean it does not exist!
A mother in my community would fight for the husband's attention , care and love even if that meant making her little daughter do a grown up household work so that she would have time looking pretty for her husband,and if a mother had a smarter girl than her that everyone admires she starts making her feel bad about herself bringing all her faults and imperfections to the surface so that she would lose her self esteem and remain controlled by her mother, no bruses here ,yet what a burden we, the girls carry around in order to live a decent life!
If I could manage escapeing from men abuse and I can actually prove myself in men's world and defend myself loudly and strongly against them using law power and every other possiable way i'v learnt , how can I get away from a psychological and emotional abuse within my family from my own gender?
I'v experienced sexuall abuse by a grown up girl in my family while I was only less than six years old ,I know exactly where to go when im abused by a man sexually, emotionally or psychologically but where should I go to get help against this type of violence? how can I stop it if I didn't get help? should violence be supported with physical evidence in order to be heard?should violence against women be heared only when it's practiced by men?Why is there very little or no awareness campaigns teaching mothers how to raise their daughters , how to protect them and how to look after them making them aware of the same gender violence?
Alot of questions that is, few answers that have,what makes me realy angry and sad is that I see my emotional health going down ,depression and suicidal thoughts are always in my head waitting for the next emotional abuse working as the hand that pulls the trigger to take me down once and for all..there is always the behind scene side that no one notices or maybe can't have the guts to talk about which if it was realy heared and actions were taken it would make a difference and save lives, that's why I see it like the perfect smooth crime , damage is done and no blood is sheded yet by people who can't be seued for the lack of evidence!