Introducing myself and my journal: should I Stay or should I GO

About Me:
I am 45 years old and I have been with my husband for 14 years and in all these years he has cheated for at least 10 of them with different women. I have forgiven him everytime and tried as hard as I can to forget. I just can't get passed them I dont know if I am still here because I don't want to be alone or I am scared of starting over. What I do know is that something has got to give. My husband is not physically abusive he is emotionally abusive. I don't like who I am now. I don't go anywhere I don't really have any friends and everytime I try to get a job he finds a way to sabotage it. What I do know that there is something wrong with me and I need and want to change. By me not having anyone to talk to that is not a family member or my friends that have time because they have things of their own going on. I thought I would try this out. Talking to someont that has nothing vested in either of us may get me back on track..

My Passions:
Helping Others

My Challenges:
Getting back to who I was

My Vision for the Future:
Feeling better about myself and loving life again

My Areas of Expertise:
dont know