Coming back to myself i can do better

When i am happy i write, and when i am sad and depressed i write yes in that case tears make my writting fade as i always use paper and pen.

I have always had the passion for watching other people through a window, making up stories abput them, share their dreams and add colors to their lives as i wish.
Since i was 14 i believed in me and that i will make my life diffrent, i believied that a women is strong and that the sky is the limit.
Along the road to my 26 i saw how my life as a woman is changing alot and in the last 2 years i found myself in circles of sadness, depression and frstration about what is happnening in my country, my family and myself.
I have being working in women resource center over the past four years but some how i think i am not doing my best given the opprtuinity that i had, i think i tend to give up too soon, i have to acknowledge the support in upgrating my skills that i went through that wouldnt be the same if not, all the challanges that we face as we live in a country (Sudan) were you hardly manage to plan for your month and our future as young females is a pazzil that you know that lots of its peices is not in my hands but the policies, economy and my community.
I joined world pulse almost three years a go as i came cross it and through AWID.org * found it intersting, and with good resources on women empowerment as i was working with Sudanese women empowerment for peace, i applyed for VOF in 2010 but i couldnt make it to the end due to challanges in internet access.
Today here iam again to prove that i still care and that i am still strong and that working for women empowerment started with me being more empowered i still dont own a computer and accessing internet is not that easy but i have my mobile, my pen and paprers and before that i have my passion for better future for me, my sisters and women of my country.
I have my voice i no longer watch other people lives through a window but i can be part of it and be the change through making my voice loud and heared.
I might not have a job now but i have a role, i do care about my country and i belive that we are in critical time we need to stand up and talk about our problems demand for our rights and work for developing our country.
I believe that being part of VOF is my next step for taking up my role in women empowerment and make use of the skills that i have developed over the years.
* AWID the Association for Women's Rights in Development