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ZAMBIA: I Survived and Now I’m Helping Others

Musenge Musomali
Posted November 30, 2017 from Zambia
Photo courtesy of Musenge

A survivor of sexual abuse and HIV, Musenge Musomali gives thanks to the organization that saved her life and inspired her to help others.

“Their love, encouragement, and support helped me to gain a new hope.

My name is Musenge. I am a Zambian woman, aged 36. I am the founder and executive director of Liberated Hearts Foundation.

And I am also a survivor of incest, child sexual abuse, and HIV.

During the early years of my childhood, I viewed our home as a safe environment. I believed I would grow up to be whatever and whoever I wanted to be. My parents were educated with decent jobs; my father was an accountant and my mother a nurse. Having a good education was very important in our home.

But when I was 7 years old, everything changed in our home. My father became physically and emotionally abusive towards my mother, sister, and my three brothers. Since I was my father’s favorite child, he was good to me and spared me from the beatings everyone else endured.

But I was not spared from abuse. While my father raged against my mother and siblings, I suffered silently at the hands of my brother who had begun to sexually abuse me. At first it seemed like a nightmare, but as time went on, I began to realize the abuse was real. I withdrew into my world of pain and isolation.

No one noticed that I had changed. It seemed as though everyone in my family was struggling. We had all developed ways to cope with the abuse we were experiencing. I got used to it; it became a normal part of my life.

When I was 10, my father fell ill and passed on in 1994 from AIDS-related health complications. He passed away without ever knowing what was going on under his roof.

After my father’s death, I thought the sexual abuse would stop, but I was sadly mistaken. When one brother stopped abusing me, another one began. I was afraid to tell anyone because my brothers always told me we would get a nasty beating from our parents if they ever found out. He said that if I told, all our friends and other family members would find out which would bring shame and embarrassment upon the family. I accepted the abuse as my fate.

After my dad died, my brothers took his place and became uncontrollably abusive towards my mother. My father had created three exact, abusive replicas of himself. Due to enormous stress as well as AIDS-related health related complications, my mother eventually fell seriously ill too and passed away in 1994.

With my parents gone, my sister, who had left home and married, took on the responsibility of taking care of all of us.I was sent to boarding school and was able to finally escape the sexual abuse. But my brothers continued to terrorize my sister. They would steal her money and escape into a world of alcohol, women, and drugs.

During the holidays, I too abused alcohol, drugs, and sex. I had developed destructive behaviors. It seemed everyone in my family was highly dysfunctional and that no one would help us.

The tragedies continued: One of my brothers got meningitis and died suddenly. A year after his death, my sister passed away from fungal meningitis. As if that wasn't enough to lose my parents, a brother, and my sister, another one of my brothers also died from Tuberculosis, leaving only me and one brother.

At this time, I was 19 years old. I moved in with a man who turned out to be psychologically, mentally, and emotionally abusive. I endured the abuse because I didn’t have anywhere else to go. In the first year of this relationship, I got pregnant, but my baby tragically died from pneumonia. At my medical check up, I discovered that I was HIV positive.

After my daughter's death and my diagnosis, I finally gathered enough courage to leave the man I lived with. I went to stay with a family friend, and continued to destruct.

Then, by some miracle, things began to change for me. At 21, I got very sick and was diagnosed with Tuberculosis. My health deteriorated rapidly, and I was taken to Our Lady's Hospice, a Catholic non-profit organization.

This organization saved my life. Itwas there that I met caring and wonderful counselors, nuns, and caregivers who prayed with me and gave me encouragement and support. I had been through a lot in my life, and I had lost the will to live. Their love, encouragement, and support helped me to gain a new hope. I did not know that total strangers would give their all to a woman like me who felt rejected, neglected, abandoned and unloved.

When I fully recovered in early 2004, I began to volunteer at Our Lady's Hospice as a counselor. From that moment my life took a whole different turn, and I began to give encouragement and support to other people who were diagnosed with HIV.

Since then, I have continued my work as an HIV activist as well as an advocate for the rights of girls and women who have been victims of incest and sexual abuse.

I share this today to thank Our Lady’s Hospice for helping me become who I am today, and to let others know that there is hope. This organization did not give up on me, even when I had lost my will to live. They stood by my side even when my own family had left me there to die. For four months, they took care of all my needs and helped me to rebuild my life.

I was discharged from their care 13 years ago, and I am still an HIV/AIDS activist.

Earlier this year, I registered my own organization called Liberated Hearts Foundation. We address issues of child sexual abuse, especially within families. My foundation is also helping to ensure that children who are abused have access to medical treatment to reduce the chances of HIV infection or pregnancy resulting from abuse.

After struggling for years, I have come out to speak publicly about my ordeal. I am determined to be a role model for others from similar backgrounds. I want those who are struggling to know that with help like the love and care I received from Our Lady’s Hospice, they too can change their lives and change the world.


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How to Get Involved

Watch Musenge speak about ways to cope with abuse on YouTube. You can also follow her organization, Liberated Hearts Foundation, on Facebook.

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  • Nakinti
    Nov 30, 2017
    Nov 30, 2017

    Hello Musenge,

    This story kept me alive till the end. You are one powerful soul that the world needs. I can explain to you how light I felt reading this story. I am so happy you have finally registered your own non-profit and empowering other women. This is so good. Keep up the good work.

    Sending you love from Cameroon, dear sister!

    Nakinti

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 01, 2017
    Dec 01, 2017

    Hello Nakintin, Thank you very much very much for your uplifting words. I will send you send you an email. Thank you once again. 

  • mae me
    Dec 01, 2017
    Dec 01, 2017

    Hi Musenge, thank you for sharing your powerful story. You become a strong woman to stand for other women who are weak. You are their voice....

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 01, 2017
    Dec 01, 2017

    Thank you Maeann, I value your encouragement and support. 

  • Olutosin
    Dec 01, 2017
    Dec 01, 2017

    Thanks for sharing with us. I thank the strangers who became your friends. I am happy that you are saving others too. You have taken the right step. I love you my sister.

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 01, 2017
    Dec 01, 2017

    Thank you Olutosin, Your encouragement and support means alot to me. 

  • jlanghus
    Dec 02, 2017
    Dec 02, 2017

    Nice badge there, hon:) Great job!!!

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 02, 2017
    Dec 02, 2017

    Thanks love. Im humbled

  • jlanghus
    Dec 02, 2017
    Dec 02, 2017

    You're welcome:) Hope you're having a great day!

  • Tamarack Verrall
    Dec 04, 2017
    Dec 04, 2017

    Dear Musenge, 

    As I read, I wondered how much can one girl, one young woman bear! You endured so much by the time you reached your 20's. What inner strength you have. Thank goodness that you were then surrounded by those loving nuns. By telling your story there will be many more who gain the courage to continue, and to tell theirs.

    Much love to you dear sister, and best wishes with your ongoing work,

    Tam  

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 05, 2017
    Dec 05, 2017

    Thank you Tam for your encouragement and best wishes. Im humbled by your kind words. 

  • Evelyn Fonkem
    Dec 07, 2017
    Dec 07, 2017

    Dear Musenge,

    I have carefully read your article with tears and pain.You went through a lot from the hands of your own brothers.Who could have believed that after everything you went through, you have decided to break the silence.Thank you for this wonderful article that will help build hope in the infected.You are a resilient woman.My appreciation goes to the nuns who showed you much love .

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 14, 2017
    Dec 14, 2017

    Thank you Evelyn, I am humbled by your kind words. 

  • NAKOLO LOKULE
    Dec 11, 2017
    Dec 11, 2017

    This was hard to read and even harder to imagine, its very sad, most believe that abuse is by strangers which is not necessarily the case. You are a powerful woman  keep changing lives by sharing, God bless you richly with wisdom, health and long life. 

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 14, 2017
    Dec 14, 2017

    Thank you Mary for your kind words, I am humbled. 

  • AMumbua
    Dec 11, 2017
    Dec 11, 2017

    Hey Lihaf, 

    It breaks my heart to read all what you went through. It's something I cannot wish anyone to go through and thinking that the are girls going through it is saddening. Anyway, I am so proud of you for overcoming all that.  Congratulations too for founding an organization to help other people, you are a real definition of courage.

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 14, 2017
    Dec 14, 2017

    Thank you AMumbua for your encouraging words. I am even more inspired to go out there to help more people. 

  • Lily Habesha
    Dec 14, 2017
    Dec 14, 2017

    Hi Lihaf,

    we all have gone through hardships, but your is a little bit tougher. But, it is good you've overcome all this and succeed.

    You are wonderful.

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 14, 2017
    Dec 14, 2017

    Thank you Mulatwa Mosisa, value your kind words. Very humbling. 

  • AyoOluwa Shalom
    Dec 14, 2017
    Dec 14, 2017

    Dear Lihef,

    I appreciate the woman you are today, despite all that you have been through. You are so positive and even in your story, I can feel how optimistic you are about life and reaching out to others.

    Stay Positive!

  • Musenge Musomali
    Dec 15, 2017
    Dec 15, 2017

    Thank you AS25 for your kind and encouraging words. I am humbled and inspired to do more. 

  • CHRISTIANE ZOZO
    Dec 26, 2017
    Dec 26, 2017

    Merci MUSENGE Tu es une brave femme. Tu as accpter les humiliations pour l'interet des autres.

  • Musenge Musomali
    Mar 14
    Mar 14

    Thank you Christiane my sister

  • Sophia Atadana
    Jan 18
    Jan 18

    Thanks Musenge for sharing such an emotional story which shows that with care and love one can survive anything she has been through. You are such a strong lady. Be blessed for helping others today.

  • Musenge Musomali
    Mar 14
    Mar 14

    Thank you Sophia, value your encouragement and support.

  • Juliet Acom
    Sep 18
    Sep 18

    You are a phenomenal woman.

    I look forward to meeting you some day.

    God bless you

  • Musenge Musomali
    Sep 18
    Sep 18

    Thank you honey. I'm humbled and I look forward to meeting you too. Very soon. God bless you too.